It hurts like hell however, I should be completely clear how I really feel for her proper right here and proper now. No extra pussy-footing round. I simply must maintain it brief and candy, however crystal fucking clear.

“Gracie, I like you and I forgive you. You might be mine and I’m yours. And I would like the entire world to realize it. No extra hiding. If we dance at midnight once more—and I hope we do—it’s not as a result of we’re retaining our love a secret. So, I hope it’s clear, and I imply crystal clear, that we belong to one another and nothing goes to return between us once more.” She provides me a nod as tears proceed to stream down her face. With one final scratchy sentence, I seal the deal. “Now, come give me a kiss.”

Misplaced

Emily

I discover myself almost skipping by means of the hospitals doorways once I return after Jonathan despatched me house to scrub up.

He loves me!

Jonathan Kelly loves me and forgives me!

I can’t imagine how fortunate I’m to have him stroll again into my life. Not solely did he stroll again into my life, however he fought for me. He needed to shake sense in to me, however he did it. Even after I let him down he’s forgiven me, and he’s mine. I’ve been his since I walked away from him years in the past, however now he’s mine as nicely. Now it’s time to get him on the highway to restoration and residential as quickly as doable so I might help him get again on his toes.

He didn’t need any guests when he awoke in the course of the evening final evening. His throat damage, he was exhausted and he wished some alone time with me earlier than others began invading our area. After all there have been nurses and docs coming out and in of the room, however our eyes hardly ever left one another’s even after they have been speaking to him or checking his vitals. He lastly despatched me house early this morning in order that I might get cleaned up. After solely being gone a few hours, I really feel like I haven’t seen him in days and may’t wait to get again to him.

As I stroll off the elevator and enter the ready room, there may be nonetheless a giant crowd of individuals, our folks.

I’m realizing increasingly more now, that my whole life the police division has been my household, and they’re Jonathan’s household too. As a child I didn’t admire the household that comes along with your father being a police officer. As scary because the job is, I’m so glad that Mick and Jonathan each have such a giant help system; folks that will do something from aid you transfer to present their life for you. I didn’t assume I wished this life after watching my dad and mom’ marriage crumble, however now it’s one thing I plan to embrace and admire.

I discover as I get nearer to the group—a lot of whom have been right here once I left—that all of them appear a bit extra down than they did once I left. Mick sees me, and heads my means, he additionally lets out a giant breath like he’s getting ready himself for the dialog he’s about to have with me. My coronary heart charge picks up velocity and I can really feel myself begin to panic.

“What Mick? What’s occurred? Inform me he’s okay? He was positive once I left!” I ramble as he approaches me. I can really feel eyes watching me however attempting to not be apparent. What the hell is occurring?

“Emmers, he’s okay. He uh . . . simply doesn’t need any guests.”

“What do you imply, Mick? What are you not telling me?”

I can inform that he’s attempting to be quiet and never trigger a scene. I’m the one elevating my voice, however I’m so confused.

What’s he attempting to say?

As I watch for him to reply, he takes me by the arm and we transfer to the again of the room away from all people else.

“Em, they lastly informed him about Bob not making it and he isn’t taking it too nicely.”

“Oh my God, he must be so upset proper now. I must get again to him. He wants me, Mick.”

“Em, he doesn’t need any guests.”

“I heard you, however that doesn’t imply me.” I say incredulously.

Mick simply stands there watching me and I lastly determine it out.

“Mick, does it imply me?”

Hesitantly, he nods his head to verify that I too am not wished in Jonathan’s room.

“I don’t perceive, Mick. Simply two hours in the past we lastly mentioned ‘I like you’ to one another and now he doesn’t wish to see me?”

“It’s not you, he doesn’t wish to see anyone. Devon is the one particular person he’ll let in, and he’s in there with him now. He gave strict directions to the hospital employees and to the officer standing watch outdoors his room. He’s been by means of so much. He’s coming to phrases with the truth that Bob died when he was imagined to be his back-up. That will be arduous for any of us to take care of. It’s not you, sweetie.”

I can’t imagine he doesn’t wish to see me. I hear what Mick is saying, and I admire that he’s upset and struggling, however I wish to assist him by means of this. I wish to consolation him and ensure he is aware of it’s not his fault. I wish to be there for him when he wants me most.

The excessive I used to be feeling once I walked by means of the entrance doorways of the hospital has vanished, and I really feel like my coronary heart is being torn in two.

I would like to tug myself collectively. Time. I simply want to present him a while. I can try this. I’ll wait so long as he wants me to. With this mantra operating by means of my head, I thank Mick, give him a hug and return to the group that’s nonetheless gathered to help Jonathan. I give my hellos and thank yous for his or her help and discover an open chair the place I sit and wait with all people else.

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