“Due to what I stated at Pearl’s. I needed to go together with you that night time. I did. You already know that, don’t you? I’d have left with you. However then Vinny and Harper got here in with Harper’s males, and I simply… I couldn’t allow them to kill you. So I stated what I needed to say to make them cease.”

Closing my eyes, I swallow exhausting. I do know what she stated saved my life.

And possibly she’s telling the reality—possibly she solely agreed to marry Vinny to guard me.

However did she actually wish to come again to New York with me?

Or is she simply saying that now as a result of she thinks that’s what I wish to hear?

Fuck!

“Please, Gleb,” Mel whispers, her hand discovering my chest as soon as extra. Her palm rests proper over my beating coronary heart I’m attempting so exhausting to regulate. “Please, don’t shut me out.”

My eyes snap open to make sense of her phrases, and the tears that glisten on her lashes are my undoing.

“I don’t hate you, Mel. I may by no means hate you,” I guarantee her.

And as if it’s developed a lifetime of its personal, my hand lifts from her collarbone to cup her comfortable cheek.

“Then say you forgive me,” she insists. “For what I stated in Boston.”

Why does it really feel just like the knife simply retains digging deeper? Twisting inside my intestine?

“There’s nothing to forgive. You probably did what you thought was finest,” I guarantee her. “You saved my life. I do know that.”

However does that imply she really desires me, like her kiss would suggest? Or is she simply doing this now to fix one thing between us that’s not her accountability to repair? What’s the reality, and what’s the lie?

I can’t inform anymore.

Mel’s parting phrases from every of our previous fights come flooding again to me in a rush, filling my thoughts as if my mind was simply ready for me to ask the query:

“I would like area. I would like freedom. And I feel we each know these are issues you possibly can’t give me.”

“I would like to seek out my very own approach, my very own life, and I’ve to do that with out you.”

“If I don’t get out, I’ll by no means be blissful. I’ll by no means actually be free.”

“You prefer to faux you’re so completely different from all the opposite assholes who wish to possess me. However in actuality, you simply wish to personal me like each different man I’ve ever identified.”

“I need you to go away me alone, Gleb. Simply… return to New York and go away me in peace.”

And it hits me like a ton of bricks. These phrases are not any completely different than what she stated to Vinny. “You’d be doing me a favor by kicking him out… He means nothing to me.”

Sure, she stated these phrases to avoid wasting my life. However that doesn’t make them any much less true.

And now she’s attempting to fix my coronary heart—my satisfaction—as a result of I’m simply too addicted to maintain it collectively. I didn’t wish to see the reality for what it’s.

“You say there’s nothing to forgive, however then why have you ever barely checked out me because you agreed to marry me this afternoon?” she presses. “Why received’t you discuss to me?”

I shake my head, my throat tightening with the feelings that threaten to eat me. As a result of, for as soon as, I can’t inform her the reality. I can’t convey myself to say that it’s as a result of at this time was one of many happiest of my fucked up existence. That it felt like I one way or the other received the golden ticket.

And it’s fully at her expense.

“Please, Gleb. Can’t we simply have one night time the place we put all our shit apart? I don’t need our marriage ceremony night time to be empty and meaningless. I don’t wish to be alone.”

Mel steps ahead once more, and this time, I can’t convey myself to cease it.

I can’t resist.

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