A paramedic rushes out of the home in the direction of the ambulance, and I seize his arm.

“That’s my spouse in there. Is she okay?”

He sighs and stops strolling. “We’ve acquired a pulse. She’s as steady as we are able to get her within the area, however we gained’t know of any injury till she’s seen on the hospital. You may come within the ambulance along with her once we’re able to go and we’ll go over something we are able to.”

I look over at Harper’s dad and mom, they usually give me their blessing to go along with her.

“We’ll observe behind. Keep robust, son. Keep robust.” Harper’s dad squeezes my shoulder, and tears fall down my cheeks.

I ought to have seen this coming. I ought to have taken go away. I ought to have demanded that she get assist. That is all my fault. I may have doubtlessly allowed my spouse to take her personal life. What sort of a husband am I? I’ve been too busy moaning and bitching about our lives falling aside, and now this has occurred. If Harper dies, then I’ll don’t have anything. My life is nothing with out her.

A stretcher is pushed out of the home, and I rush over and seize Harper’s hand in mine. Her pores and skin is deathly pale, her eyes are closed, and her physique seems to be so small beneath the white sheet.

“Please, child. Stick with me. I would like you. I can’t do that with out you.”

The paramedics load Harper into the ambulance, and I stand again to offer them room. Carl comes over to me, throws his arm round my shoulders, and slaps my again. “I’ve instructed work what’s taking place. Simply consider you and Harper. I hope she pulls via, pal. Name me when you want something.”

My throat immediately feels dry. No phrases are forming in my mouth. I handle a nod, and the way I even managed that, I don’t know. I really feel numb.

“You may are available now, Drew.”

I climb into the ambulance and sit within the seat the paramedic factors to. I placed on my seatbelt and take Harper’s hand in mine. I twirl her wedding ceremony ring round her finger and attempt to reminisce about any second apart from this one proper right here.

“I now pronounce you husband and spouse. It’s possible you’ll kiss the bride,” mentioned the registrar.

I take Harper into my arms and bend her backwards, making her giggle. Our mouths meet, and for the primary time as husband and spouse, we seal the cope with a kiss. Our mouths grow to be one. Our tongues duel. My hand caresses the aspect of her delicate face. I by no means thought I may really feel as completely happy as I do proper now. This second completes us. Two halves of a soul linked as one.

“Drew, let me present you to a household ready space whereas the docs work on Harper,” says the paramedic, as he helps me out of the ambulance.

I watch my spouse being rushed into the hospital and thru doorways that I can’t enter. May that be the final time I see her alive? That very thought is soul-destroying as a result of I can’t reside with out her.

***

“Mr Duncan… Mr Duncan.” My title breaks via the fog, and I straighten up rapidly.

It takes me a number of seconds to understand I’ve been in a daze. I do not know how lengthy I’ve been ready for an replace. It seems like hours in the past that the paramedic squeezed my shoulder sympathetically earlier than he left me watching 4 partitions.

A health care provider is kneeling in entrance of me, his hand is rested on my shoulder.

“Sorry. That’s me. Is there any information?”

“Observe me.”

I stand and observe the physician. He escorts me right into a smaller kinfolk’ room that’s simply sufficiently big for me and him and closes the door.

“My in-laws are someplace. They have been following the ambulance.”

“I’ll see if I can discover them after I go away right here. Parking is a nightmare at the moment of day.”

I nod. I’ve been right here extra instances than I can rely via work and at all times rely my fortunate stars that I may park in emergency parking stored for police and ambulances. “Is Harper…” I can’t convey myself to say alive.

“She’s steady. We’ve pumped her abdomen and he or she’ll be sleeping for some time. I’ve learn her file and know she’s been via quite a bit currently. Has she been supplied any skilled assist to assist her cope with the grief?”

I shrug. “She was supplied it. She declined. She’s fallen right into a darkish abyss. It’s acquired worse during the last two weeks, however she wouldn’t let anybody in. She wouldn’t go to see her physician; we have been all getting on her nerves. Why did I take no for a solution?”

“Can I name you Drew?” I nod. “Don’t blame your self for any of this, Drew. When a beloved one goes via hell, all we are able to do within the second is be there for them. Somebody must need assist to realize something from it, and from what you’re saying, had you bought Harper skilled assist, then it in all probability wouldn’t have stopped what occurred immediately.”

Even listening to the physician say that doesn’t erase the guilt I really feel.

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