I requested Physician Li in regards to the current state of affairs of a Sheng and the affect of slippery fetus. However physician Li instructed me severely {that a} Sheng was born with a chilly physique and was not straightforward to get pregnant. It was not straightforward to get pregnant this time. If he slipped the fetus rashly, he would damage himself and by no means get pregnant once more!

This, my coronary heart is totally determined.

I attempted my greatest to be with ah Sheng;

Nevertheless, if you happen to use Sheng for nothing in your life, let’s not say whether or not Sheng will blame me;

Even for myself, I’ll really feel responsible all my life.

In my view, it is sufficient to do one fallacious factor in a single’s life.

I’ve lengthy considered a strategy to obtain each objectives, however this fashion is simply too dangerous to my father and the entire Yuqin palace.

I do not wish to go this far if it isn’t essential.

Nevertheless, in the long run, the imperial edict of the emperor’s brother compelled me to go this fashion.

Liu Xiang’s daughter has grow to be the empress of the palace, so Liu Xiang can also be a supreme minister. My brother married me. It was Liu Xiang’s little daughter, Liu Yixue.

I do not even wish to marry my mom’s favourite cousin hanruo and Shen Qingmu who has been following for ten years. How can I marry Liu Yixue?

Mo Yurong, the little metropolis grasp of Zhongqu, got here to Xiling, which made me really feel that I could not keep in Xiling Kyoto any longer, as a result of I felt that Mo Yurong might need come to ah Sheng.

If he’s geared toward a Sheng, it implies that Yun Jincheng will arrive at Xiling quickly.

I’ve no different strategy to go besides to take Sheng distant.

So I took benefit of the day when my brother and his concubine went to the ancestral temple to worship the grain God, and took ah Sheng out of the door. On the eve of my departure, I discovered Chen Zhangzhen within the imperial palace.

Chen Zhangzhen obtained the favor of her mom’s concubine in her early years. Now I can solely use this favor so as to get my brother’s bracelet.

In fact, I am not afraid of her going again;

In spite of everything, so as to be protected, I tied up the Chen household and threatened her to assist me with their lives.

Once I put the bracelet on ah Sheng’s wrist, I felt that the guilt that haunted me for a lot of days simply pale.

After I acquired the bracelet with ah Sheng, I used to be prepared to go away the palace.

I did not count on to fulfill Liu Yingxue.

Liu Yingxue, as a queen, naturally is aware of in regards to the marriage of the emperor brother.

Luckily, I additionally perceive that ladies are jealous. After I took benefit of Liu Yingxue’s selfishness and dealt along with her simply, I left Kyoto with a Sheng. From then on, I utterly betrayed my imperial brother, Yuqin palace and Xiling, who raised me.

I declared that I used to be going to Hainan in Dongling.

However in truth, he deliberate to let Li Qing drive his carriage to Zhongqu first, after which to Beiming to return to Changzhi county.

It’s mentioned that probably the most harmful place is the most secure place.

I do not assume even Yun Jincheng would assume that I might take a Sheng again to Beiming. I had lived in Changzhi county for a number of years, and was cared for by Lao Zhou and Ding. There must be no drawback on this journey.

However I missed it.

I’ve missed Yun Jincheng’s potential and his look after Gu Nanshan.

I do not know the place Yun Jincheng acquired the information of ah Sheng, however he led a whole lot of 1000’s of Gu’s troops to assault Xiling. The place he went, there have been rivers of blood and corpses all over the place.

He took a metropolis and slaughtered it.

Tens of 1000’s of lives, whether or not troopers on the battlefield or harmless folks, had been all killed by Yun Jincheng.

All he did was to drive his brother at hand over ah Sheng.

I can nearly think about my brother’s anger when he realized that I took ah Sheng away. I also can think about how pathetic these harmless persons are.

ah Sheng with clear eyes, my temper could be very sophisticated.

Evidently there are two folks combating in my coronary heart, one mentioned: “Su Muyan, you do not have to go to Guan Yunjin, nor do it’s a must to deal with different folks’s life and demise, simply take her away, take her distant, by no means thoughts the world, spend this life in leisure.”

And the opposite one is accusing me.

He mentioned: “Su Muyan, you’re the son of Prince Yu who has loved 1000’s of honors. You’ve got the accountability to let the individuals who undergo you reside a peaceable life. You possibly can’t ignore 1000’s of harmless folks to your personal pursuits.”

Two sorts of voices entangled in my coronary heart, which made me unhappy.

In the long run, I compromised.

I am unable to recover from the hurdle in my coronary heart.

So far as ah Sheng is anxious, it’s fallacious for me to benefit from others’ hazard and feed her jade dew for private profit;

So far as Xiling is anxious, it’s much more fallacious for me to disregard 1000’s of surnames.

I am a sinner. I am unable to go fallacious many times.

I first ship a letter to Yun Jincheng to cease the battle, after which let him choose up ah Sheng from Yulong Snow Mountain.

I instructed Li Qing and Nian Si to arrange a scorching pot for ah Sheng at wangxue Pavilion on Yulong Snow roof. They cajoled her into going up the mountain on the bottom of consuming scorching pot.

It’s mentioned that youngsters’s temperament is probably the most impatient.

On the best way, Sheng mentioned he wouldn’t depart.

“I carry you?”

I requested tentatively.

I did not count on that the woman actually lay on my again and let me carry her up the mountain.

That is my absolute belief.

I must be glad.

I carry a Sheng on my again and go to the snow Pavilion step-by-step. Actually, I actually hope this street will be very lengthy, in order that I can keep along with her for a very long time.

Nevertheless, regardless of how lengthy the street is, there can be an finish.

Niansi and Li Qing have already ready what they want.

Sheng was very glad and confirmed nice curiosity in scorching pot.

Prior to now, after I had dinner along with her, I all the time wished to compete along with her for scrumptious meals. On this present day, I had no urge for food.

I watched her eat and helped her prepare dinner a variety of dishes.

I rigorously stare at her delicate, white face, I wish to print her in my thoughts.

Li Qing reported that Yun Jincheng had arrived on the foot of the mountain.

I acquired up and rubbed ah Sheng’s head. I instructed him in a low voice that I had one thing to do. Ah Sheng, you let Nian Si accompany you to eat slowly.

“Come again quickly.”

Sheng checked out me and answered severely.

I turned and left, afraid to have a look at her face once more.

I am afraid;

I am afraid I am going to return if I take a look at it extra.

I’ve anticipated the anger of Yun Jincheng. He pours on me angrily. If he does not wish to get the information of ah Sheng from me, I feel he can strangle me instantly.

He requested me at hand over Sheng.

I sneer.

How can I hand over ah Sheng earlier than my objective is achieved?

My objective could be very easy. There are solely two. One is that Yun Jincheng withdraws from Xiling. The opposite is that he should compensate Xiling for the pension for the lifeless and wounded troopers;

This requirement is sort of unattainable for the victorious international locations.

However that is what I, the sinner of Xiling, can do for Xiling finally. Subsequently, I can by no means and won’t fail.

After Yun Jincheng signed the contract, I instructed him the place of ah Sheng.

Wanting on the disappearing determine of Yun Jincheng, I really feel that we are going to not have one other likelihood to fulfill ah Sheng this time.

I sat within the snow for a very long time, considering, possibly it is good for me to freeze to demise in Yulong Snow Mountain;

Anyway, I am additionally a sinner.

I’ve no face to see my brother or my father. I’m much more ashamed of my mom’s spouse and 1000’s of people that raised me.

Later, the emperor brother appeared and picked me again, who was nearly unconscious.

I had many frostbite on my physique. After the remedy of the imperial physician, I lastly recovered my life.

I do know that if my brother picks me up, he will not kill me, however I actually cannot recover from this.

I knelt outdoors my brother’s camp for a day and an evening.

Xiaojinzi and the imperial physician got here to steer me many instances, saying that if I proceed to kneel like this, I am afraid my legs can be damaged, and I’ll lose my life eventually.

Nevertheless, if you happen to can actually lose your life, thanks with demise;

I am relieved.

Brother Huang, what a sensible man.

He did not kill me, simply need me to reside below the torture of self blame and guilt on a regular basis.

For me, it is worse to reside than to die.

Lastly, xiaojinzi got here to steer me, let me take into consideration my father and Yuqin palace, he additionally mentioned, if I actually die, that father even has nobody to die.

There is no such thing as a denying that little gold is correct.

My coronary heart, shaken.

Lastly, with the assistance of xiaojinzi, I acquired up from the ice. I occurred to fulfill the nationwide grasp who got here to debate with the emperor brother once more. After they talked about it, they vaguely talked about such phrases as “let the apprentice assist me do it” and “kill Yun Jincheng”.

I did not actually hear it on the door.

However I heard Yun Jincheng talked about within the phrases.

I barely pause, point out cloud Jin Cheng, is said to the Sheng.

Seeing that I finished, xiaojinzi instantly shook his head helplessly and suggested: “shiziye, the emperor could be very indignant about this time. However the emperor mentioned that if there’s one other time, he’ll minimize you off. Shizi, you need to think about for the king if you happen to do not take into consideration your self. You’re the solely son below the king’s knee. You probably have a very good or dangerous son, Who do you wish to deal with the previous man? “

After that, he mentioned: “son, you take heed to the slave’s recommendation, even when the prince and concubine of Beiming are type to you, however this time you ship her again intact, it is also that you have paid off all of the kindness. Son, you can assist your self this time. Do not thoughts the enterprise of the prince and concubine of Beiming any extra.”

I used to be silent.

Perhaps, little gold is correct.

Now that she has been despatched again, we should always cease meddling in her enterprise.

After greater than ten days of common care, my physique is lastly again, the frostbite on my arm and knee are nearly good.

In line with the emperor’s brother’s thought, after I was healed, I set off for Kyoto to have a very good relaxation, and by no means to be concerned within the frontier battle.

Nevertheless, I didn’t count on that I couldn’t let go in spite of everything.