She most likely would. So what I needed to do was determine if that was one thing I wanted or if I wanted to only be left alone for the second.

The issue was then that I didn’t know what I needed. Not one bit.

“It’s going to be okay child.” My mother massaged my shoulders and I seemed up at her gratefully. “I’m right here, and I’ve obtained you.”

“Thanks.”

“We could get one thing to eat? It’s getting somewhat late.”

“That sounds good.”

I adopted my mother into the kitchen, the place I used to be comforted by the sounds and smells of her making one thing for the 2 of us to eat till every thing else appeared to fade into the background.

* * *

After dinner, I headed as much as my room and contemplated what I ought to do subsequent. I did actually wish to speak to somebody about what was occurring, what had occurred, so I made a decision that my finest plan of action at that second was to textual content Vanessa.

I pulled out my telephone and despatched her a easy ‘hey’ earlier than tossing my telephone on my mattress and grabbing a e-book to learn whereas I waited for her to reply.

Books had been my escape for a really very long time. Particularly once I was younger and didn’t have very many associates—usually no associates in any respect—I discovered solace in having the ability to learn. I’d usually carry books to high school. I ended doing that when Lucas and I grew to become associates, as I lastly had somebody that I might speak to and hang around with.

I sighed. I knew that we might nonetheless be associates, we at all times had been, however I didn’t wish to take into consideration him proper now. It simply made me miss him. So, I turned again to studying my e-book.

I didn’t get very far although. Vanessa responded to my textual content inside one other couple of minutes.

Hey, what’s up? her response learn.

Uh, I don’t know the place to start.

Don’t fear, I’m right here to hear, do you wish to name?

I severely thought of it for a second, however I knew that I would cry once more speaking about every thing and I didn’t need her to listen to that.

No, I’d somewhat simply textual content.

That’s completely nice, simply textual content, I’m right here for you.

I took a deep breath after which started typing out the story on my keyboard. I typed out how my mother had come, what a catastrophe that had been, then how Lucas had tried to interrupt up with me to make issues higher and I left in tears, then the apology that my mother had given me and the place I used to be now. I feared it was so much, and it took me a number of minutes to sort every thing out.

Then, once I pressed ship, I couldn’t bear to see the textual content bubble as Vanessa started to sort so I tossed my telephone to the opposite facet of my mattress and tried to show again to my e-book. However I used to be manner too anxious. I couldn’t focus on studying in any respect.

Then my telephone buzzed, and I picked it up as rapidly as I might, scanning Vanessa’s message again to me.

That may be a lot, and I can perceive why you’d be upset and want to speak to somebody. Nevertheless it additionally doesn’t sound to me like Lucas was truly making an attempt to interrupt up with you. I feel he might have been providing an answer that he thought you may want, however he wasn’t forcing it on you. I’m glad that your mother apologized, however I nonetheless want she would say or do extra. It appears like she damage you a large number and I don’t suppose a easy apology is sufficient to negate that. Nevertheless it’s all of your alternative.

I sighed; I had a sense this was coming. Deep down in my coronary heart, I knew that every thing she was saying was true, I had simply wanted somebody to substantiate that for me.

I simply don’t wish to lose her once more now that I’ve her.

Like I mentioned, it’s your alternative. However I do hope that you’ll contemplate what I’ve mentioned and that you simply perceive the place I’m coming from once I say this: I need your mother to do extra to apologize. If she’s not prepared to just accept that you simply wish to be with Lucas, then that’s extraordinarily egocentric contemplating the turmoil that she’s put you thru. I do know you’re going to say that she’s simply making an attempt to guard you, however this appears to transcend that.

I suppose you’re proper. I feel I may have to consider it for a number of days. I sighed. In fact, Vanessa was proper, it was additionally simply much more difficult than that. I had a variety of emotions concerned and invested, and a part of me needed Lucas to point out me that he needed to be with me. I needed him to return to me, as an alternative of the opposite manner round.

It could assist me to gauge if he was actually honest, and this was one thing I appeared to have had a variety of hassle with just lately.

And so far as my mother went, I had a sense she would proceed to point out me that she was sorry. And, in time, issues might return to the best way that I used to be used to them being.

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