“Completely contrasted,” she repeats after I inform her. “I like that, Colt. You’re fairly poetic for a… no matter you’re.”

I open the passenger-side door, smirking. “I used to have to write down lengthy stories in my previous job. Typically, I went too lengthy. Individuals used to joke that I ought to’ve been a author, however it was solely a joke.”

“What was your previous job?” she asks.

“I used to be in particular operations. A inexperienced beret.”

Transferring round to the driving force’s seat, I discover her watching me. I’ll by no means tire of wanting into her eyes and being near her.

“I’ve waited a 12 months for this.”

I lean in, however then she leans away. One thing like a sting hits me proper within the intestine. Weirdly, disgrace grips me. I get the boyish urge to push the door open, run away, and faux this by no means occurred.

“Colt,” she whispers. “It’s not that. It’s work. I don’t need my boss to see.”

“I don’t need anyone to see,” I snarl. “Whenever you get all horny, that’s only for me.”

She gestures on the car parking zone on the individuals strolling by. “Nicely… shall I get all horny right here, then? Not that I’d know the way to do this.”

I begin the automotive engine, mentally calculating the quickest method to get her someplace personal. “You retain dropping all these hints about expertise. It’s such as you’re begging me to show you, Lexi.”

“Nicely, that will be useful.”

I pull out of the car parking zone, wanting round.

“What are you doing?” she asks.

“Looking for a spot to kiss you. A spot no one’ll see.”

She laughs adorably, nearly like she’s shocked anyone would need her this badly. That’s good and dangerous. She shouldn’t be shocked, however I don’t need anyone else to even have a look at her.

“What about over there?” she says. “I wouldn’t say alleys are precisely romantic, however for a q-quick kiss?”

The slight stutter tells me she’s not as assured as she’s presenting herself, however that may’t cease me from doing this. I pull into the alleyway, ignoring the graffiti on the partitions and the trashcans. Then I flip to my Lexi. She’s watching me together with her lips parted, that tempting expression.

Leaning ahead, I carry my lips to hers, after which she pushes down in opposition to my chest.

“I-I-I can’t,” she says, leaning away like she thinks I’ll pounce on her anyway. “I’m sorry, Colt. I assumed I might. I wished to. I need to, however I simply can’t, and I can’t clarify. Oh, God. I’ve ruined every little thing.”

I maintain her fingers gently, shocked at how mild a person like me can really be. “It’s okay,” I inform her, leaning down and looking out into her eyes. “I get it.”

She stares again at me, shaking her head slowly. “No, you don’t.”

“I believe I do,” I say. “I’ve… been around the globe, Lexi. I’ve met all totally different sorts of individuals. I’ve skilled darkness.”

“What?” she snaps, snatching her fingers away. “You’re saying one thing should be mistaken with me as a result of I gained’t kiss you in some dirty alley? Is that it? I should be poor, damaged. I will need to have critical issues. Is that it?”

She’s getting labored up, a flush spreading throughout her face.

“I’m not right here to guage you,” I inform her, “and I’m not right here to pressure you. However I see you, Lexi.”

She blinks, her eyes glistening with tears. That seals it for me. I attain ahead and cradle her face.

“I see you,” I repeat.

“What does that even imply?” she whispers, tears streaming down her cheek.

I gently caress her cheek, then lay my brow in opposition to hers. “That wasn’t a selection, simply now—you pulling away. That was a reflex. You need it. I can see how badly you need it, however one thing’s stopping you. You don’t have to inform me what.”

“You don’t know what you’re speaking about,” she whispers, however it sounds unconvincing.

“It’s okay,” I say, wrapping my arms round her.

She hesitates, however then she grabs onto me and pulls herself shut. She presses her face in opposition to my chest. For a second, I believe she’s going to remain right here, letting me supply no matter consolation I can, letting me be right here for her. I do know I’ve seen one thing in her—PTSD, worry that goes previous what she desires into who she is. Who harm her? In the event that they’re nonetheless round…

She pushes away from me once more. “I-I’ve to go.”

“No, you don’t.”

She grabs the door deal with. “I’m sorry.”

“Lexi…”

I curl my hand round her wrist, holding her in place. She bites her lips for a second, one other reflex, this one in all lust. Then she snatches her hand away. “Please, simply let me. I’ll textual content you, okay?”

“Lexi—”

“You got here off scorching and heavy, okay?” she says fiercely, yanking her hand free. I let it go. I might maintain her, however in opposition to her will? “You possibly can’t simply anticipate me… I’ll textual content you.”

“We are able to discuss now,” I inform her.

“There are some issues you may’t say. You recognize that, Colt. It’s not such as you discuss and textual content the identical, is it? In your texts, you inform me you’re shocked you didn’t die of boredom earlier than I got here alongside. You get all poetic, and now you’re making an attempt to leap my bones.”

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