I whimper, accepting my destiny.

When he notices I’m now not struggling, he cants his head to the facet, assessing me rigorously. I look him straight within the eye with as a lot hatred as I can probably handle. If Sebastian insists on doing this, I’m going to make rattling certain he is aware of it’s not freely provided. I’m going to depart little question as to how a lot he disgusts me. And when it’s over, a technique or one other, I’m going to do all the pieces in my energy to make sure it’s the final time he ever will get his arms on me.

A merciless smirk varieties on his lips as he enters me. Regardless of his earlier makes an attempt, there’s no lubrication, however he someway forces himself inside anyway. One among his arms stays on my throat, daring me to offer him a motive to squeeze, whereas the opposite digs into my hip with bruising power as he pistons out and in of my physique. Sebastian is well-endowed, so the ache steals my breath. I chunk my tongue and cheek, dig my fingernails into my palms. I do something I can consider to distract myself from the horror of it, so I don’t give him the satisfaction of crying out. This man has had sufficient of my tears, and I refuse to offer him any extra.

Sebastian takes my silence as a problem, one I readily settle for. Regardless of how roughly he drills into me, irrespective of how onerous he pinches my nipples or digs his thumb into my inside thigh, I refuse to make a peep. It’s probably the most outstanding efficiency I’ve ever given as a result of whereas I’ll seem stoic on the floor, I’m dying on the within. Any inkling of hope I’ll have been holding on to has been shredded past restore. The longer it goes on, the extra enraged he turns into once I don’t give him the response he’s in search of. When his physique stiffens, and he spills his seed into me, I breathe a sigh of aid, figuring out it’s nearly over.

However my aid is short-lived as I see the look on his face when he pulls out and tucks himself again into his pants. He’s deceptively calm, a lot so, I ask myself if that is the second I die? My husband’s fists come flying at me so quick, I don’t actually have a likelihood to blink earlier than they meet my flesh. Sebastian doesn’t say a phrase as he rains blow after blow down on my physique. My face, my ribs, my abdomen, nothing is off the desk. He’s now not involved about limiting his punches to non-visible locations. I lastly break and scream so onerous my throat is uncooked when he twists my arm at an unnatural angle, inflicting excruciating ache in my shoulder. When he releases me, my arm falls limply to my facet, fully ineffective. I’m nearly sure he pulled it proper out of its socket. I double over, vomiting all around the costly rug. The very last thing I see earlier than blacking out is Sebastian’s designer idler coming along with my head.

Chapter Eleven

Presley

– Age 17

I drum my fingers over the kitchen desk, overwhelmed by all the chances earlier than me. I drove to Atlanta this previous weekend with Nicky to go to a school truthful. There have been representatives from over 2 hundred completely different universities. Neighborhood faculties, non-public or state universities—the alternatives had been limitless. I’ve packets from at the least half of these unfold out earlier than me.

I finger the nook of an NYU pamphlet. Beck and I’ve talked at nice size about which college we’d select. We’d each wish to main in enterprise, so we now have flexibility. The College of West Georgia appeared to be our greatest possibility—it’s solely about two hours from Hope, and we’d get in-state tuition. I really like Hope, and I particularly love this ranch, however I’ve been itching for one thing extra for years now. I wish to expertise life exterior of small-town America. I wish to know what it’s wish to reside in a metropolis surrounded by thousands and thousands, consuming all of the takeout you possibly can think about, exploring the humanities, and experiencing varied cultures. What higher time to do this than your faculty years?

New York Metropolis was by no means on my radar. Nonetheless, after assembly with their admissions consultant, I can’t deceive myself and say the thought doesn’t intrigue me. Truthfully, it excites me. I can’t cease occupied with how a lot I’d be capable of see and do every day. I’m torn as a result of I believed we had this all discovered, and now I’m being pulled in a distinct route.

The one factor I do know for certain is that I wish to be near Beck. Not as a result of I don’t assume our relationship wouldn’t survive distance—I do know it could. I simply don’t wish to be with out him, and he feels the identical approach about me. We’ve been collectively nearly daily for the previous 13 years. He’s not solely my boyfriend—he’s a part of my soul. No one is aware of me like Beck. He’s my finest pal. My confidant. He makes me really feel cherished and secure. Once I’m away from him for any size of time, it looks like part of me is lacking. I don’t wish to dive into faculty with that form of vacancy.

I lookup once I hear the display door squeak. Beck walks into the kitchen, wanting attractive as ever in his flannel, denims, and boots. The principle home is simply as a lot his dwelling as mine, so knocking isn’t one thing he’s ever wanted to do.

“Hey,” he says with an enormous smile.

“Hey.” I discreetly flip over the NYU brochure as I stand as much as greet him with a kiss.

He appears to be like on the pile on the desk. “What’s all this?”

I do know I’ve to strategy this delicately. Beck loves all the pieces about residing right here. He’s by no means been drawn to metropolis residing—he’d be comfortable staying in Hope ceaselessly. The one motive he even needs to go to school is that he needs his personal horse ranch someday. He’s already had all of the hands-on expertise he wants with the animals, however he needs to be taught extra about operating a profitable enterprise. I don’t know what I wish to do after college, however a enterprise diploma is transferable, so I figured it’s not a foul method to go.

I observe his eyes to the desk. “I introduced dwelling a bunch of stuff from the school truthful I went to with Nicky.”

“Why? We already know the place we’re going. I believed you solely went so she didn’t must make the drive by herself.”

“Effectively, that’s the way it began. However there have been lots of of colleges there, and a few of them appear superb, Beck. It wouldn’t harm to have choices, proper?”

He frowns. “What’s occurring, Pres? Are you altering your thoughts?”

“No! Not precisely, anyway. However what if we went out of state? Don’t you assume it could possibly be enjoyable?”

“I don’t know,” he says. “I believed we determined to remain near household. And staying in-state is rather a lot cheaper.”

I shrug. “It’s not like we’d be leaving ceaselessly.”

He scrubs a hand over his face. “The place are you pondering? Did any of them stand out greater than the others?”

I take a deep breath and decide up the NYU pamphlet. “This one.”

“New York Metropolis? Are you shittin’ me, Presley? Why would you ever wish to go there?”

“Why not? It could possibly be enjoyable.”

“Yeah, should you like concrete,” he mutters. “Or getting mugged.”

“Beckett, I’m severe. Consider all of the issues we may expertise. Would you at the least take into account it?”

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