The reality of these phrases made me really feel uncomfortable. Ray had been keen to attempt nearly the whole lot I’d needed, or at the least what I’d thought I’d needed. I had fantasised about being shared, however I had no thought how I’d really feel about it in actuality. When Ray was my Grasp beforehand, I might have at the least obtained off on the concept of being with another person to please him, however now the considered one more hostile male degrading and hurting me didn’t appear thrilling in any respect. Issues have been complicated sufficient with simply Ray.

“I don’t assume I may share you now, at the least, not but. I would like you to only be mine for some time.” I nodded. “However I might have performed. I might have shared you. Even with him.”From the disgust in his voice on that final phrase I knew we weren’t speaking about Mark anymore. I felt a small pang of remorse at the concept that I may have had each Ray and David with out getting myself into this mess, however I knew David would by no means have gone for it.

“However Mark received’t fuck you. And he already is aware of the whole lot, so don’t get any concepts about with the ability to sweet-talk him.” I used to be barely stunned by the coarse approach he spoke, and I may really feel there was nonetheless a tense undercurrent between us from him mentioning David. However he had confirmed my suspicions. Mark already knew the reality, and I couldn’t think about somebody so stony ever feeling sorry for me. The person I remembered had appeared much more unmovable than Ray and was most likely proof against any impact I may have hoped to have on him. Our blissful bubble we’d created over the previous few days had nicely and actually burst.

“Mark might not personal you, however he’s in cost whereas I’m gone, so you’ll behave for him as I might anticipate you to behave for me, do you perceive?”

“Sure, Grasp.”

“You’ll obey his instructions, you’ll be respectful, you’ll prepare dinner and serve him meals, and you’ll not even think about begging him that can assist you.”

I used to be trembling on the considered being left alone with this man – a person I barely knew, who might or might not need to do issues to me, and who had no qualms about the truth that I used to be Ray’s captive and that every one of this was occurring in opposition to my will.

“In case you disobey, Mark might punish you, ought to he really feel it vital, and you already know I definitely will after I get again, if I hear of something that might trigger me to be disenchanted in you.”

“Please don’t go, Grasp.”

“It’s already determined.”

I couldn’t bear the considered him being away so lengthy after the whole lot we’d shared over the previous few days.

“Please don’t depart me behind. I can include you. I may keep within the automotive, no matter it’s, please—”

“Callie, you’re going to earn your self a punishment earlier than we’ve even completed breakfast if you’re not cautious.”

I attempted to cover my tears from Ray, terrified that he would see them as an indication of continued dissent, however nothing of mine was hidden anymore.

“Come right here.”

I deserted my half-eaten breakfast and went to take a seat on Ray’s lap.

“You’re trembling. What are you so afraid of?” I couldn’t reply him; there have been so many doable eventualities going round in my head.

“Look, I don’t need to depart you, and I’m happy that you really want me to remain, however there’s one thing I’ve to take care of. I’ll be again earlier than you already know it. And also you’ll be secure right here.” I nodded as if his phrases have been comforting me, however they weren’t, and Ray knew it. “Is it Mark you’re afraid of?” I nodded slowly, hoping my reply wouldn’t anger him. He sighed. “Callie, I might by no means let anybody take care of you if I didn’t belief them utterly, okay? Mark has a algorithm to observe, and so do you. You received’t be round him on a regular basis, and should you behave nicely, then he has no cause to harm you.”

“I’ll behave, I promise.”

“I do know you’ll. I’ve been bragging about you.” I felt a flicker of pleasure in my chest which I instantly tried to quash. The necessity to please folks was so deeply ingrained in me I even obtained some sick satisfaction out of being Ray’s prized possession.

“When are you going?”

“This night.”

“How lengthy will you be?”

“I don’t know for positive. Hopefully, solely an evening or two. You’ll sleep in your personal room till I’m again.”

*

I felt sick with nervousness for the remainder of the day, ready for the dreaded night. I stayed largely silent, caught inside my swirling ideas. Ray appeared to grasp and didn’t push me. He stored me shut, and I used to be grateful for that. Each informal contact helped me imagine that he would attempt to get house to me as shortly as doable. And but, on the identical time, his contact jogged my memory of his imminent departure, and the way I used to be going to be disadvantaged of his presence and left within the palms of a stranger. The hours glided by spitefully quick, and at 4 p.m., Ray took me upstairs to prepare. He got here into the bathe with me, and I didn’t even attempt to withstand his closeness. Actually, I all of a sudden craved it, however when he tried to succeed in between my legs and contact me, I began to get teary once more. I used to be afraid in a approach that wasn’t the identical because the scrumptious mixture of concern and exhilaration that I used to be used to experiencing round Ray. This was a deadening type of nervousness that felt paralyzing, positively not leaving any room for pleasure or arousal.

“Please don’t,” I sobbed and leant in opposition to his chest.

“Hey, come on now, toddler, sufficient of that. It’s good to pull it collectively now. Mark received’t need to see your tears.”

“Sorry, Grasp.”

I managed to close down my feelings as a lot as doable; it was the one approach I used to be going to get by way of this. I allowed Ray to complete washing me, after which I obtained dressed within the outfit he had chosen for me. We have been sitting on the mattress, Ray brushing my hair, once we heard the knock on the door. I began shaking as I obtained up from the mattress however tried to mentally brace myself. Regardless of the whole lot that Ray was placing me by way of, I nonetheless needed him to be happy with me.

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