“However wouldn’t you be fearful about getting caught?” I felt a wierd twisting sensation in my abdomen once I imagined Ray being taken away from me. I won’t need this life, however I might now not deny how a lot I needed him.

“You don’t want to fret about that. I can deal with every part when the time comes.”

“Would you actually belief me sufficient to let me exit alone?”

“Possibly. I hope I can, at some point. However I would like you to do issues as a result of they’re what you actually need, not simply since you really feel like that’s what you must do.”

“However you mentioned that if I keep, we’d be 24/7. That looks as if it will be fairly limiting.”

“Does you exhibiting your devotion to me must be limiting?”

“No, however—”

“Does me taking care of you need to be limiting?”

“It may very well be. It’s now.”

“Issues can be completely different, I promise. It’ll simply take a while.”

I didn’t know what to consider. I simply couldn’t think about an existence the place Ray trusted me to exit, to satisfy folks, to check, to only be on the planet. Certainly, residing with somebody that possessive was at all times going to really feel like a battle?

“Look, I do know you don’t wish to draw comparisons, however consider it like this: after we have been having intercourse simply now, did you’re feeling like another person?”

“No.”

“Precisely. I would count on sacrifices from you generally, however I’ll by no means require you to desert your self.”

I all of the sudden felt immensely responsible for every part I’d relayed about David. I knew I’d painted him in a horrible mild, nevertheless it hadn’t been like that after we have been collectively. He’d cherished me, he’d supported me, and I knew he needed what was greatest for me. He simply had problem understanding what that was. Possibly if we’d had extra time…

“Did you eliminate my ring?”

Ray took my hand and squeezed it.

“It discovered its manner again to him.” It wasn’t the reply I’d been anticipating, however he had no purpose to lie. Had he performed it as a kindness to me or to David? Both manner, I appreciated that it should have been a threat.

“Thanks, Grasp.”

16

Ray stayed near me for the subsequent few days. He labored as little as potential and appeared to only wish to be round me, even once I was busy with one thing else. I used to be folding laundry in the lounge when he got here to face within the doorway. Possibly it was the post-sex hormones, or possibly it was some type of change in him, however the pull I felt in his presence was a lot stronger now, and I might really feel myself warming underneath his gaze.

“What you have been saying yesterday,” he started, unusually tentatively, “about needing to submit – do you suppose you’re prepared for all that once more?”

“Isn’t that what I’m doing now?”

“Calling me Grasp and doing my laundry doesn’t imply you’re submitting to me.”

“I assume not.”

“I do know you’re nonetheless fearful about going 24/7, however what about if we began to… play once more.” I ended folding. I hadn’t actually thought of it, nevertheless it did look like the pure subsequent step now that we have been sleeping collectively once more. “Consider it like a apply run, or a number of little apply runs; time the place you’ll be able to let your self keep in mind that it’s okay to belief me.”

“Okay.”

“Okay?” His eyebrows have been raised. “Identical to that? No arguments? No what-ifs?”

“Will I be allowed to safe-word?”

“After all.”

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