I attempt to calm myself right down to make it make sense.

“We have been so cautious, Maria. I promise, we have been.”

Maria is quiet, for nearly too lengthy, and I squeeze her tightly, too tightly, so she will’t let me go.

Oh God, what have I achieved?

“Bonnie,” Maria whispers once more, and I really feel her hand stroke knowingly down my again.

“How have you learnt?”

I absorb a deep breath and pull again a bit of to take a look at her.

“I haven’t had a interval. I can’t bear in mind when it was,” I whisper, disgrace consuming away at me.

“I’m so sorry, Maria. We have been so cautious,” I repeat, and she or he simply nods.

I can’t learn her. On the skin, she appears calm and picked up, however there’s one thing in her eyes, a spark of disappointment, possibly? And it stirs my intestine the fallacious manner. I hate that I’ve let her down. God, I couldn’t bear it if Maria was ashamed of me.

She breaks the silence and my racing ideas.

“Did you employ a condom?”

I nod frantically.

“Sure, we did. I promise we did. Please, don’t be mad at Puck. He didn’t do something fallacious. He did every thing proper, he was the one, he was, he didn’t,” I stammer, however Maria shushes me as my sobs begin to get louder.

“Bonnie, I am not mad at Puck. Otherwise you. However we don’t know for certain. I’ll get you a check, okay, after which we’ll know.

“Maria,” I whisper by means of my sobs. “He’s going to kill me.”

The room is so quiet, you’d hear a pin drop.

We each stand frozen on the spot, our ideas racing, not over Puck, however Carlo. At my revelation, on the fact behind it, at the potential of it coming true. As a result of it’s, we all know he’s greater than able to it.

My coronary heart begins to speed up much more. I don’t need to die. Not but, not now. I can’t die now.

“I received’t let that man do something to you, Bonnie. To not you, nor my son.”

And there’s a glance so sturdy, so defiant and actual in her assertion, I nod slowly, letting the phrases convey me a smidge of consolation. However, if it got here to that, would Maria actually be capable to assist?

She stands up, pulling me together with her, as she leads me to my mattress, laying me gently on the mattress and tucking me safely beneath the covers.

“Keep right here, okay? The boys are downstairs within the video games room, in order that they should not trouble you simply but. I’ll be twenty minutes, tops.”

With that, Maria leaves my room and closes it softly behind her.

My head is pounding, and my eyes are swollen and achy.

How might this occur? We have been so cautious.

I pull Puck’s journal out from beneath my pillow and torture myself by studying his love letters to me.

How did we find yourself right here?

What seems like hours later, Maria comes again with a few containers in her palms, and I begin to really feel sick.

I don’t need to do that.

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