At this level, it was onerous to inform if Na-Yool was weak to compliments or weak to type remarks coming from a superior. After all, Si-Jin’s face clearly was an important motive for her blushing.

Afterward, he appeared to have forgotten fully about her. He might swear he had not considered Kim Na-Yool as soon as. With none particular regrets or satisfaction about hiring her, a month handed.

Si-Jin was at all times insanely busy with work, and Na-Yool was now considered one of many workers. Her existence had no weight. And so long as she didn’t upset him, she at all times would.

Her first workday went nicely. The draft of her first venture, which neither had flaws nor was visibly good, decisively made Si-Jin lose curiosity in her. Then it was Na-Yool’s second day at work.

After which, that evening.

Si-Jin dreamt of Na-Yool and got here.

***

A moist dream, what the fuck!

On the age of 30, out of nowhere, and dreaming of his subordinate.

The primary emotion that came to visit was self-loathing, the second was self-loathing, and the third was unsurprisingly self-loathing as nicely. Then came to visit the incomprehension.

Why, due to what, for what??

It was the thirtieth yr that Si-Jin didn’t trouble courting as a result of it was a waste of time, pointless, and for numerous related causes. Rising up from an harmless youth to the workaholic he now was, it was an unchanged rule he had firmly adopted. Naturally, neither did he preserve any girl by his facet.

At occasions, it felt like the entire world ostracized him. At any time when he appeared down at others for exhausting themselves over annoying and meaningless issues of the guts, they gossiped he was a loopy weirdo with solely his beauty for himself.

He by no means understood why, for the only real motive he refused so far, individuals thought it was a waste of his magnificence. However in any case, it was higher to consider him as a weirdo losing his appears to be like than the intense suspicion that he is likely to be homosexual.

The right reply, after all, existed. Si-Jin hated girls, however generally he hated males way more. So he couldn’t be homosexual, even over his lifeless physique.

On this matter, Ji-Hyung, considered one of Si-Jin’s few pals, as soon as requested him if he didn’t merely hate people as an entire, and it was maybe probably the most correct reply. It was not that Si-jin didn’t have a single romantic relationship simply because it was a waste of time, or as a result of he didn’t like girls or males.

He principally hated socializing with individuals. He simply hated individuals. He preferred seeing his household from afar, and his pals infrequently. He was emotionally indifferent by nature. That mentioned, he did have intercourse drive ‒ though on and off ‒ so he neither was asexual.

Need was undoubtedly there. Nevertheless, the willingness to type a hard relationship with somebody solely to fulfill this want didn’t match with Si-Jin’s unbiased worldview, who valued effectivity probably the most.

In Si-Jin’s opinion, human rationality clearly prevailed over want. He knew numerous males couldn’t achieve this, however simply because there have been numerous dumbasses didn’t imply he needed to be considered one of them as nicely.

He was in strict management of himself. Solely as soon as each few months, or a fast fap as soon as each few weeks. If he was pent-up, it was sufficient simply to launch.

To have intercourse, he had two choices: to sleep round with a lady he doesn’t know nicely, like an animal in warmth. Or quite the opposite, to be a bastard and feign emotions to deceive a well-acquainted girl and put up with every kind of tiring amorous affairs.

As such, crude masturbation was moderately higher. The act was disagreeable, however not less than it was handy, and it was environment friendly. In any case, it was a want that had no object and had no identification.

Due to this fact, it was the primary time it concerned somebody. Apart from the truth that it had been ten years since Si-Jin final had a moist dream like some center faculty scholar.

“……”

Whether or not it was the primary or not, the state of affairs was such that solely swearing was the correct response.

In any case, the person entangled with the unrelated girl dragged into his soiled delusion was himself. Along with his subordinate, no much less! Who began working for him barely 2 days in the past!

She was certainly not the form of girl Si-Jin’s unconscious would have drawn in, and he clearly had no real interest in her, to not point out within the emotions between women and men. The one factor that caught Si-Jin’s curiosity was the portfolio that she diligently supplemented. Simply this, for certain.

However the portfolio definitely didn’t make him come, so what was happening?

Regardless of how a lot he thought of it, Si-Jin had no clue. And he was not used to not understanding one thing. Neither was he used to not understanding one thing. It will not matter if it was not value understanding, however this involved his disciplined decrease half. The supply of his confidence was shaking complete.

Not like throughout the interview, the lady within the dream checked out him with pure eyes and was smiling. Pure, so pure it couldn’t be certified in any other case. It was such a dreamy gaze, as if there was nobody else on this world however him to fill it.

It was undeniably not the primary time Si-Jin had obtained such a gaze, nevertheless it was not less than the primary time that his consciousness didn’t really feel repulsed.

Though it in all probability was as a result of Si-Jin’s thoughts was not in the correct place even to reject it.

Loopy bastard, you fucking kinky bastard…

Si-Jin was engulfed in a complete skepticism about life.

He had crushed the lady with the harmless smile underneath him, fiercely stripped her of her garments, bit her flushed cheeks, and sucked her lips. It appeared that her physique had been touched just a few occasions, and it was a sadistic act of spreading her legs aside to ram in.

If solely he had blissfully forgotten about all of it! If solely his reminiscence was not less than hazy! As Si-Jin didn’t typically dream, it was routine for him to precisely bear in mind the loopy desires he sometimes noticed.

At this level, his flawless reminiscence felt like a curse. The whole lot he didn’t need to bear in mind was recalled. The second when he thrusted into her moist insides, the second when he randomly shoved and shot, and the second the lady collapsed as she moaned in utter ecstasy whereas wrapping her arms round his neck regardless of his brutal lovemaking. After all, because it was a loopy dream.

At 4.40 am, after totally washing his physique up in a compulsive method, Si-Jin sat at midnight lounge and looked for some time for a neuropsychiatry hospital. Solely at 5.50 am did he acknowledge it was helpless, upon realizing that he would carry this dream secret to his grave.

Si-Jin finally arrived on the workplace early, earlier than 7 am. In any case, it was not intentional. I by no means meant to, and I didn’t jerk off both, it simply got here out by itself. To start with, I’m not even curious about her. And even much less in intercourse… he inwardly denied like a mantra. As if chanting like this might flip it into fact.

Even when he was actually simply stating details, he was so keen like an earnest liar that it as an alternative sounded unfaithful.

“Good morning, Mr. President.”

“……”

“Such a stunning day. It looks like you got here early?”

Really, what a foul timing. Who else was it however the protagonist of his uncontrollable moist dream!