What do I do now? I can’t go up there after witnessing that. There’s no manner I’d be capable of look him within the eye, not to mention have intercourse with him. Ugh, I would really puke.

That provides me an thought. I pull out my cellphone.

BRYNN: Hey, I can’t come over at present. I feel I’ve meals poisoning or one thing.

SAM: Oh, shit. That sucks. Do you want something?

Dammit, why does he need to be candy proper now?

BRYNN: No, thanks. Lisa is right here to maintain me.

BRYNN: However I’ll ship over my notes for the examine group in a short while.

SAM: Yeah, positive, each time. No rush. Get some relaxation, and in case you want something, let me know.

BRYNN: Okay, thanks.

I let my head fall again towards the tree as my arm falls to my aspect. I’m within the clear for now, at the very least. I have to get dwelling and determine what the fuck I’m going to do about this. With a deep, bolstering breath, I climb to my toes and start the lengthy trek again dwelling.

After I burst via our entrance door, I slam it behind me and flee to my room. I flop onto my mattress and scream into my pillow, however I don’t cry. I can’t. My blood boils so furiously that my tears evaporate earlier than they even attain my eyes.

Beating my fists into my mattress, I scream some extra. The anger swirling inside me has taken management of my physique and thoughts, and I can’t cease myself. I can’t even assume straight. I’m positive I appear to be a toddler throwing a mood tantrum, however nobody is right here to see.

How might he? How might he betray me like that? After all of the issues he’s mentioned to me, to not point out all of the issues we’ve shared and carried out. He used me.

Once more.

He informed me all of the issues I wished to listen to and, like an fool, I ate them up. I let my guard down. I trusted him once I knew I shouldn’t. He confirmed me who he was when he confirmed up in O-Chem, uncovered all his lies, then grew to become my enemy. I knew higher, and but, right here I’m. All as a result of I gave him the advantage of the doubt.

Like Connor.

I roll over, flopping my arm over my face, and the tears lastly come. Am I destined to be that lady? The one who’s solely good quickly? The one who’s nice for warming a mattress, however not for loving?

Fuck, I hope not.

However when will I get my likelihood? I’ve already confirmed I’m no good at character judgment. The one man I believed was my ceaselessly left me for greater and higher issues, and the man I believed was my insta-love story turned out to be a mendacity prick. Twice.

The sobs lurch out of me so violently, I curl into the fetal place.

I don’t know the way lengthy I lie in mattress crying, but it surely’s lengthy sufficient for the solar to go down. When my abdomen rumbles, I notice I haven’t eaten something since lunch, so I head downstairs. I search the fridge, developing empty. My abdomen could also be hungry, however I’ve no urge for food.

I accept a bowl of cereal, which I eat on the sofa whereas watching trashy actuality TV. I want one thing senseless. Curling up beneath a blanket, I nurse my cereal and let the drama on the TV negate my very own.

It isn’t lengthy after I end my cereal that the entrance door opens and Lisa strolls in with Brent scorching on her heels. I attempt my finest to wipe my face and plaster on a cheerful expression. “Hey, guys.”

Lisa does a double take. “Oh, Brynn. I believed you’d be at Sam’s.” She frowns as she watches my jaw quiver. “Oh, shit. What’s incorrect?”

I elevate my gaze to the ceiling, blinking away the stinging tears, however I can’t communicate.

Lisa runs to my aspect. “Brynn, what occurred?”

“He did it once more.” I drop my chin, locking my watery eyes on hers. “He lied.”

She grimaces and turns to Brent. “Are you able to give us a minute?”

“Oh, uh, yeah. I’ll wait in your room,” he says, then heads upstairs.

Once we hear the door to her room shut, Lisa turns again to me. “Okay, spill it.”

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