As I leaned ahead in my airline seat, sweating and shaking, combating in opposition to my autonomic nervous system that appeared hell-bent on torturing me, I made myself a promise. I’d simply have a look at him. Only one look to verify he was okay, to verify he would make it by this and never be utterly destroyed by this accident.

Then I may go. If I noticed that he was secure, I may depart.

I pounded pretzels and electrolyte drinks on the journey, decided to be in ok form to inform Kael to shove off as soon as we bought there. Slowly, my nausea settled, and my headache eased away. By the point we landed in Seattle at nearly midnight, I may stand and stroll by myself with out always falling in opposition to Kael.

He glanced down at me as we made our method slowly out of the terminal. “Tristan simply texted me. Zev is okay. He fractured his shoulder and ribs, and he has a concussion, however he must be out in a day or two.”

I nodded numbly, stopping in the midst of the airport. He’s okay. One thing inside me collapsed, however I couldn’t inform if it was aid or defeat. He’s okay. You don’t must see him, Isla. Simply go. Get one other ticket some place else. Get out of right here.

“They stated visiting hours are over, so I’m presupposed to take you to Tristan’s condominium.”

“Who’s paying you?” I requested hollowly, nonetheless staring ahead. “Him or me?”

“Y—uh, I don’t know. Who’s paying extra?”

“Me,” I stated routinely. “Give me a minute to assume.”

Kael folded his arms, towering over me with top that nearly rivaled Zev’s. I couldn’t assist however keep in mind the flight I’d taken with Zev when he’d “kidnapped” me and promised to show me the right way to kiss. He’d been so mild with me, and greater than that, he’d made me really feel accepted for the primary time in my life. He had rolled with the punches as an alternative of freaking out over my fainting episodes, and it had been the primary time since my analysis three years in the past that I’d felt… regular. He’d made it regular.

But it surely wasn’t regular. Forcing this life on another person—somebody wholesome and in a position—wasn’t simply unfair, it was egocentric. This wouldn’t be the primary time Zev would surrender one thing essential simply because he was anxious about my well-being. I knew that as a result of I knew Zev. I knew the depths of his kindness, and I knew these depths had no finish. He would do something for the folks he cherished.

Liked.

I like you a lot it hurts.

I closed my eyes and crouched down in the midst of the airport terminal. As luggage rolled previous me and ft shuffled round me within the quiet airport, I leaned my brow in opposition to my arms and hunched in a ball. “I can’t do that,” I whispered.

“What, stroll?” Kael requested.

“No… this. I can’t go see him.”

“The fuck you possibly can’t,” Kael replied angrily. “You set your well being on the road to run to your boyfriend, and now you wish to surrender and camp out right here as an alternative?”

“Yeah.”

“God almighty,” Kael muttered, pacing away one step after which pivoting again to me. He kneeled on one knee in entrance of me. “Is that this some type of… lady disaster?”

I snuffed out fun, rocking my head in a “no” movement. “It’s a me disaster.”

“Is he a shitty boyfriend or one thing?”

“No, he’s superb,” I stated into my arms, nonetheless not wanting up. “Simply go, Kael. I wired you the cash once we landed.”

He hesitated, nonetheless kneeling in entrance of me. “I really feel actually icky about that suggestion.”

“I really feel icky speaking to you,” I bit again.

“Harsh,” he muttered. “A minimum of let me get you in a cab.”

I regarded up, my eyelids shuttering over my irritated gaze. “I haven’t determined if I’m leaving the airport.”

“You’re… catching a red-eye again?” He cocked one full, darkish eyebrow. I had the sudden impression that if pirates had been actual, Kael would completely be a pirate. He had the look.

“I don’t know the place I’m going,” I grumbled. “Simply go.”

“Man, you’re surly. You look all cute and squishy, after which it seems you’re simply as dangerous as Azura.” He tapped my brow. “No matter that is, I’m certain it’s not as dangerous as you’re imagining.”

I may think about lots. Instantly, a picture of Zev mendacity in a hospital mattress, bruises alongside his face and screens beeping, invaded my thoughts’s eye. I stood up abruptly, staggering. Kael steadied me, his crystal blue eyes dancing over me in confusion. I shoved away from him. “Okay, I’m going. I’m simply—I’ll look. I wish to see and ensure he’s okay.”

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