I seize my shirt from the place it lies on the bottom subsequent to the desk earlier than pulling it over my head. Sebastian sits up within the mattress simply as my telephone begins to ring. It’s simply Blake, telling me that she and Owen are executed with taking a look at her potential internship.

“They’ll be again quickly.” I can’t have a look at him.

“Thalia.”

I push a smile on my face. “Sebastian.” It’s a great factor Blake and Owen are coming again. It makes conserving the promise of this as one time an entire lot simpler. It’s too tempting to remain.

“Lia, you don’t must go but.”

“This was enjoyable; thanks for agreeing to the one time. Contemplate a ceasefire in place.” I depart earlier than Sebastian says one thing else that might change my thoughts.

I am going instantly to the toilet and switch the bathe on so I can rid the odor of intercourse and Sebastian from my physique. It might be a lot simpler to contemplate this a system reset if he hadn’t made such an impression. I’m fairly positive I’ve imprints from his fingers and kisses. I ought to have simply left it alone.

If I hadn’t messed the whole lot up a 12 months and a half in the past, who is aware of the place we’d be proper now?

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

Thalia

“SO, HOW WAS it?” Penelope asks instantly after answering my name, and I change to French as I stroll to my subsequent class. It’s been a couple of days, and I don’t know the best way to be round him. The intercourse was simply intercourse. I have to hold reminding myself of that as a result of all I can take into consideration is how Sebastian checked out me earlier than I left his room.

“He’s all yours. You gained’t be dissatisfied.”

“I didn’t suppose you’d observe by way of! Inform me the whole lot, and don’t depart a single element out.”

“Um, properly.” I really feel my cheeks flush. “It was sufficient to get him out of my system hopefully. It was enjoyable. I feel we each bought out of it what we needed.” I discovered I may need a brand new kink referred to as Sebastian Walker. Undoubtedly didn’t get it out of my system. It was simply intercourse, however intercourse I need to have once more. Damnit.

“Lia, sweetie, you’re not telling me what I need to know! Cease tiptoeing round it.”

I regulate the strap of my backpack that’s being weighed down by my historical past books. “I’m not tiptoeing round something. What do you need to hear? There’s nothing gentle about him? He bites? Sebastian made me beg for him to fuck me? He has a grimy mouth that’s as sizzling as he’s? That he succeeded in giving me an orgasm and that I blew him?”

“And in spite of everything that, you’re simply executed? You’re not going to dip your toe within the water once more?” she asks, inflicting me to hesitate.

I blow a raspberry, absolutely conscious that this can be a mess I took from dangerous to worse by truly following by way of with it. “Pen, the entire cause we had intercourse was to do away with the stress between us—the one time. The second I placed on that silly lingerie you had me purchase, I used to be leaping in toes first. There’s no extra dipping my toe within the water.”

I discover a bench to take a seat on as a result of this dialog is much from over. So what if I find yourself lacking class? It’s not as if historical past goes to be rewritten. The time distinction between Penelope and I makes it laborious to have precise conversations greater than as soon as every week if we’re fortunate. I don’t belief myself to not make an ass of myself if I don’t discuss the scenario out along with her.

“However you need to have intercourse once more with him?”

“After all I do.” I shake my head, my mind unable to maintain up with the whiplash. “No. Okay, possibly? I don’t know. I’m glad Owen was on his means again, or I don’t know if I may have left his room. It was that good, Penelope.”

Penelope pauses, most likely to consider the whole lot I simply threw at her. I don’t know what I’m doing. “Do you suppose he needed you to depart?”

I shut my eyes, forcing the picture of Sebastian’s face out of my head. “Sebastian informed me that I didn’t must go but. Besides I did, or we have been going to get caught. I did us each a favor.”

A small a part of me has been questioning what if we did get caught? Would which were such a nasty factor?

“Would it not be so dangerous if it weren’t only a one-time factor?” she continues as I go searching campus to people-watch.

“Who is aware of?” I say vaguely, sighing. “We’re not good for one another. We hold hurting one another. It’s a cycle of madness.”

“I like you, however have you ever thought of that possibly you might be good for one another? Simple love is boring, and you might be something however boring. Plus, he’s sizzling and good at intercourse. I wouldn’t be so fast to dismiss him as an possibility,” Penelope teases, however I don’t chortle. She clears her throat, rapidly recovering. “Have you ever had an sincere dialog with him in regards to the argument you guys had earlier than you left?”

I snort and roll my eyes. “I can’t do boring; you’re proper about that. We haven’t talked about it, and odds are, we most likely by no means will. Bash can’t take again what he stated, and neither can I. You possibly can’t rewrite historical past.”

“So transfer previous it. You’re making this tougher on your self than it must be.”

“I blame you for the mess I’ve gotten myself into. ‘Simply climb him like a tree, and the whole lot shall be high quality!’ Certain.” I reply sarcastically, and Penelope laughs on the opposite facet of the world.

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