Episode 24: I Hate You Past Hatred

“Leaving you is the one manner I will be completely satisfied.”

“I’ll make you content. I’ll make you content subsequent to me. So, Chloe. Huh? Don’t simply say such scary issues about leaving me. With out you, Chloe, I…….”

Seeing that he couldn’t enable me to depart till the tip, a bashful smile burst out.

He mentioned he wished my happiness together with his mouth, however in the long run, he was an individual whose personal happiness got here earlier than mine.

“Till the tip, are you saying you received’t let me go?”

“……How can we dwell with out taking a look at one another?”

“…….”

“I instructed you I really like you. I really like you, Chloe. I’m in love with you. So cease saying you’re leaving.”

The love that I’ve been eager for a lot previously life……. His love…….

A person whose personal happiness comes earlier than my happiness is telling me he loves me. His drooping eyes had a tragic form, sufficient to shake my coronary heart for a second.

He walked to me, hugging my wrist gently and whispering in a extra pleasant voice than ever earlier than, “Is it due to the time I didn’t settle for your love? That’s why I’m saying I’ll provide you with love any further. Or are you continue to resenting me for that man’s youngster?”

I believed I heard one thing fallacious, so I stood there and stared at him blankly. Profiting from my stiffness, he rigorously raised one hand and swept my cheek.

“This time, I’ll make you content. Let’s formally grow to be a household. You and I, the 2 of us…… No, if you need, let’s have a toddler who seems to be such as you. The kid’s identify …… Estelle. Sure, would Estelle be higher?”

The second my little Estelle’s identify got here out of his mouth,

Crash—

The remaining fragments of all my outdated emotions had been damaged.

‘Do you wish to have a brand new youngster? Then will you cease crying?’

His phrases, within the time which had disappeared, that made me cry much more miserably after dropping Estelle, echoed. Ultimately, nothing has modified about him. He didn’t even notice that he had trampled on me. The second I noticed it, my hand moved earlier than my phrases.

Slap!

With a small thwack, his head turned to the opposite facet.

“Chloe…..?”

He checked out me with disbelief.

“I’ll appropriate it.”

He was a person not price speaking to anymore. However I couldn’t assist however say this, “I hate you past hatred.”

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I needed to betray Raymond’s expectations of seeing him once more at lunch. My head, which had been scorching all evening, was now submerged coldly.

A person whose happiness is extra vital than mine. A person who dares to place love in his mouth on such a topic.

Even when it was true that he liked me, that he realized it too late, I may by no means love him.

‘The kid’s identify …… Estelle. Sure, would Estelle be higher?’

Briefly, he was a horrible man who trampled on Estelle’s existence. The person was hateful, it was disgusting. I wished to destroy the person who trampled on my little Estelle. I wished to destroy him with my very own palms.

However now I couldn’t even run away from him, not to mention destroy him. From Kailos’ perspective, who doesn’t even perceive my anger, he won’t ever let me go.

‘In case you want my assist to be completely satisfied, inform me something.’

I remembered one other man who put my happiness first.

Raymond instructed me if there was something he may do to assist, nevertheless it was tough to seek out him willingly. The guilt that crammed my coronary heart grabbed my ankle.

‘If I’m not offended, that’s a lie. However there’s you who cries for me.’

However once I remembered his final second, when he needed to die miserably due to me, I choked up and one thing got here up.

I’ve no intention of performing as bait for Kailos any extra, however even when it wasn’t me, he nonetheless had an opportunity to destroy Raymond.

The lack of Estelle can’t be reversed, however once more, Raymond couldn’t be killed as he was then. I jumped up and ran straight to the visitor room the place Raymond was staying.

“Your Majesty.”

I took a brief breath and seemed up at him. Raymond, who leaned crookedly via the open door, smiled slowly and seemed down at me.

“Sure, Chloe.”

His thick palm wrapped round my face.

“Did you discover a option to be completely satisfied?”

“…….”

I got here to him recklessly with a sense of overwhelming emotion, however once I noticed his face, I couldn’t work out what to say.

Initially, maintain him away from Kailos…… In order that he received’t be helpless as he was previously……. Let him know that Kailos wished to hurt him and grow to be the emperor.….

After which…

After which….?

Even an emperor wouldn’t be capable to defeat Kailos with none proof.… Then what ought to I do…… What ought to I do to make him……. No, greater than that…… What ought to I do to make him say…… I’ll imagine you.…. What ought to I do…….

“Chloe.”

As I used to be misplaced in my tangled ideas, Raymond quietly known as out my identify.

“Breathe out and in slowly and settle down. Sure, that’s proper.”

His palms caressed my cheeks as if to assuage me, then they got here down and patted my shoulder.  Following his light contact, I inhaled and exhaled slowly.

“How do you’re feeling? Have you ever calmed down now?”

“…..Thanks, Your Majesty.”

I used to be calmed by his calm voice however I may barely calm my confused thoughts.

“So, what’s the happiness you discovered?”

Happiness… It was a phrase that was so far-off from me that I couldn’t dare to chase. However at this second, I may make certain of what I wished.

“I would like your assist, Your Majesty. However earlier than that…….”

“Simply are available for now.”

Raymond led me into the room and closed the door. There was a low silence within the room the place it was simply me and Raymond.

Raymond sat on the sting of the mattress leaving me behind. A very long time in the past, it was the mattress the place I and he put our our bodies collectively within the time that now not exists.

“You’ll be able to maintain speaking.”

Taking a look at solely the mattress the place he was sitting, I got here to my senses and checked out him.

“I’ve a confession to make to your Majesty. I’m the lady my uncle, Kailos, made to ship you. To seduce and destroy Your Majesty, to make him emperor.”

My coronary heart, which had barely calmed down, started to pound once more.

Will he actually imagine me? Irrespective of how laborious, it’s about his half-brother, Kailos, the illegitimate youngster of a nobleman, I imply……?

I glanced anxiously at him in nervousness, however Raymond remained nonetheless and listened to me with out altering his expression. Inspired by this, I continued to talk in a clearer voice.

“So it was all deliberate. That I grew up to fit your style, assembly you after which spending the evening together with your Majesty on the New Yr’s pageant. It’s all Kailos’ plan.”

“Why are you telling me that, Chloe?

Raymond didn’t get offended. As a substitute, he requested in an detached voice.

“It’s a comment that would even make you in peril if my temper is twisted.”

It was so calm that I puzzled if he in all probability didn’t imagine me. I swallowed my saliva and opened my lips that didn’t fall off and introduced up the subsequent phrase.

“…I would like your assist.”

The second I dared to present him assist, a pungent sense of guilt hit my coronary heart once more.

It’s “assist” as a result of it’s a great phrase, however perhaps that is additionally utilizing him for my wants. For Kailos…… as within the final time I deceived him…….

“That’s why I’m making an attempt to make a deal.”

Prior to now and this life, I finally use him. Nonetheless, I didn’t wish to deceive him anymore. I, who didn’t have the audacity to get his assist with out paying something, tried to defend myself underneath the identify of “transaction.”

“A deal?”

He requested again, frowning round his eyes.

“Sure, it’s a deal.” If Your Majesty helps me, I may also…….”

His eyes shook aimlessly towards me. The gaze that had nowhere to go hovered within the air. I raised my chin to be slightly extra brazen.

“Smug, Chloe.”

Raymond moved his hand slowly. I bought slightly nearer in response to his gesture.

“I don’t do enterprise with you. I don’t want this data. I’ve already mentioned I’d make it easier to.”

I used to be slightly embarrassed. Naturally, I believed he would inquire intimately angrily about Kailos’ plan, however he didn’t for some motive.

Prior to now timeline, he had been killed by Kailos. I didn’t need his demise to repeat this time.

However Raymond took it so frivolously that it made me nervous and annoyed.

“Nonetheless, Your Majesty…….”

“Cease.”

Standing up from his seat, he requested, lifting the tip of my chin. Naturally, my gaze went up.

“What would you like?”

The horrible strain I felt once I first noticed him wrapped round my physique.

“…… All I would like is one factor.”

I seemed up at him as if possessed and opened my lips.

“I wish to wrench his neck pretending to be candy.”

Kailos, the autumn of that man.

The person who saved me, deceived me, and finally killed me. The person who killed the person in entrance of me and took away my little Estelle. Two harmless lives died due to that man, and due to me.

I believed this was in all probability the way in which to pay for the sins I had achieved in my final life.

“I wish to avenge. In case you use me, Your Majesty will be capable to destroy him. Simply as Kailos tried to bait His Majesty, His Majesty makes use of me as bait. I’ll be your bait.”

“No, Chloe.”

However Raymond denied my phrases without delay, overshadowing my willpower.

“That’s not your happiness.”

The recent warmth swept round my eyes. Tears flowing down my cheeks moist my costume.

“Nonetheless, I….”

I couldn’t perceive Raymond. Why does he need my happiness? I… I…… What I actually need is…….

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T/N: I learn this novel until chp 120 I didn’t learn the facet tales but….ngl that is one of the best novel on the market I liked the way in which how I cried, felt touched….I simply can’t say it in phrases….I like how Chloe is completely confused on the way to make plan in saving the Emperor…I imply that is what ought to occur when an individual travels again in time….the entire thing is so complicated, baffling that it makes you laborious to make any sturdy plans