Episode 16: Isn’t Love An Pointless Emotion?

‘You must sacrifice your self?’

“In fact, sure.’

He appeared straight at me and smiled meaningfully. Sacrifice, sacrifice….. I recalled what he had stated, again and again, many times, in my head.

“Hmm… So Uncle doesn’t love Depend Hilton’s younger woman?’

His face was dyed with slight embarrassment on the sudden query.

”I stated I really like you in entrance of Depend Younger Girl, however in actuality, I didn’t sacrifice something.’

‘Is that so?’

“Don’t you need your uncle to be happier than Depend Younger Girl?’

‘That’s proper.

I readily admitted and smiled. Foolishly, I used to be relieved by the phrases.

“But it surely’s the identical for her. Sometime, I feel I’ll have an individual who solely desires my happiness.’

The fingertips, gently sweeping one cheek, made my coronary heart flutter. Was it since then? What was a imprecise “like” emotion germinated into “love.”

By some means I used to be shy and turned away from his eyes.

Then, apart from love, is there any need for the opposite particular person to be sad?’

In fact, sure.’

His black eyes sank in an unappealing method.

‘It’s referred to as hatred.’

I keep in mind his voice saying that was a bit scary That’s how I discovered to like and hate by him.

“It’s a bit totally different, Chloe.”

A candy voice fairly totally different from what I keep in mind broke my ideas.

“It’s arduous for me to clarify…….”

Kailos sighed calmly. I believed, watching him, I cherished him a lot, however how did I find yourself with nothing however hatred?

“Grasp,” with an pressing voice Erikson referred to as him from outdoors the door.

“What’s occurring?”

“The royal carriage has arrived once more.”

“At this hour?”

Upon listening to the sudden information, his eyebrows twitched and soared up.

“Superb, I didn’t know he’d ship the carriage once more this morning.”

Kailos replied annoyedly, “Ship it again.”

It was a relentless reply, like yesterday.

“That…. Grasp……”

Erikson glanced at him and blurred his phrases.

“What’s flawed?”

“His Majesty has are available particular person.”

“What?”

Shocked, he jumped up. It was the identical for me, was shocked. The emperor is right here? As quickly as Erikson completed talking, a commotion was heard from outdoors within the hallway.

“No, Chloe.”

Kailos’ hand grabbed me.

“I can’t present you to the emperor…….”

Kailos bit his lip with a troublesome expression. I didn’t even consider holding his hand and simply stared blankly on the open door.

‘It was the person who instantly appeared as pink as blood, Emperor Raymond del Astaroth.

Kailos’ youthful brother, whom Kailos hated a lot. The poor man who foolishly cherished me.

I’m glad, as a result of my brother received’t kill you alone.’

The final time I had with him, which I couldn’t overlook and had been etched in my thoughts for a very long time, shook me.

His sizzling, blazing eyes scanned my physique up and down. Then, when he discovered Kailos’s hand holding my shoulder, he frowned barely. Quickly, his voice leaked out from between the curled up lips.

“Whats up, Chloe.”

His deep voice greeted me.

“Are you damage?”

Though, for him, it will be assembly once more after 4 days, nevertheless it was a voice that I heard once more after a number of months. I finished crying as a result of the primary phrase was worrying about me.

“Did it damage in the course of the New Yr’s Pageant?”

I couldn’t cover my falling tears, his expression was surprisingly distorted. He had a scary face that appeared to seize me by the collar and shout why was I crying straight away.

Nonetheless, there was a voice that blocked the person who strode towards me.

“Your Majesty.”

It was the voice of Kailos.

“Chloe shouldn’t be feeling nicely proper now.”

“Oh, my”

Raymond stopped strolling for some time, crossed his arms and checked out Kailos and me alternately,

“I do know, brother. That’s why I got here like this.”

The growling voice was fierce as if he would chunk the opponent. Kailos additionally appeared straight at Raymond with a stiff look and stated, “I hope you can be extra well mannered, Your Majesty. First, I’ll information you to the drawing room, This place doesn’t appear appropriate for Your Majesty to remain.”

“Why?”

Raymond’s gaze turned to me once more. He checked out me and requested Kailos, “I’m right here to fulfill Chloe, not you. So that you shouldn’t attempt to kick me out of this room, however you need to depart.”

“Chloe nonetheless wants stability……..”

“Cease.”

An irritated voice reduce off Kailos’ phrases.

“I assume Chloe hasn’t knowledgeable my brother of our relationship but.”

“I’m positive you guessed it, too, the rationale why I despatched the carriage. You didn’t know?”

Kailos stared silently at his half-brother with out answering. The smooth and chilly gaze towards the youthful brother was no totally different from regular, however his hand on my shoulder was holding me exceptionally painfully.

“So it’s you who has to get out of this room now, Kailos the Grand Duke of Ludwig.”

At that second, there was a chilly silence within the room. Lengthy after, his hand fell off my shoulder.

“It could possibly’t be lengthy. Chloe is absolutely, actually sick.”

“Don’t fear, brother, as a result of we’ve already shared so much.” (T/N: he implies that he already completed an excessive amount of of snu snu so he received’t trouble her now)

With a extra relaxed tone, Raymond responded slowly. Kailos walked out of the room reluctantly

When it was lastly simply the 2 of us left, Raymond approached me and wiped my moist face along with his thick palm.

Then, in contrast to when coping with Kailos, he whispered in a softer voice.

“Whats up, Chloe.”

As soon as once more, I burst into tears on the greeting that was handed down.

Raymond del Astarot, he was such an odd man, up to now, sooner or later, even within the current, he has all the time been an odd man to me.

He was a person who wished me to be happier than was. Maybe he’s the closest particular person to what Kailos stated was ‘love’.

‘For those who’re drained, you don’t need to overdo it. I’m absolutely happy even now.’

”I can’t do this, Chloe. I’ll by no means depart you as a mistress.

“Mistress life is okay, too.

Within the distant time, I, who was not concerned about being his companion, dissuaded him with a smile.

“Your Majesty loves me. We will be collectively at any time when we would like, so I don’t suppose the present relationship is unhealthy both.’

“You might be, however not me. You’ll by no means be acknowledged and will probably be criticized by individuals for the remainder of your life.’

‘It’s actually not……

I believed it wasn’t a relationship that might final lengthy anyway. That’s why I ought to have stated that the priority you’re anxious about is pointless.

Nonetheless, overwhelmed by his intense gaze, I couldn’t reply correctly and blurred my phrases.

“I don’t need you to be sad.’

He was a person who wished for happiness, not my misfortune.

‘I need you to be comfortable.’

And a voice just like that point, however a bit sadder, was ringing in my head now.

“I don’t need you to cry.’

He continued to assuage my crying that poured out

‘I need you to be comfortable.”

It was solely after I cried so much that I got here to my senses.

I used to be in my room, in Ludwig’s fort, and within the arms of Emperor Raymond, whereas crying.

What’s most embarrassing is the truth that he and I had been on my mattress.

“Did you cry like this?” Raymond requested, whereas rubbing my eyes painlessly, as if it didn’t matter that he was on my mattress. Possibly by now my eyes are pink like bunny eyes.

“Like this, what do you imply crying like this?”

I attempted to talk as calmly as attainable, however I nonetheless cried. Raymond narrowed his eyes barely and stared at me with a frown.

“Like this, I’m asking should you cried, swallowing your voice.”

“Uh…”

I rolled my eyes as a result of I didn’t know what to reply.

“Rattling, I’m going loopy.”

A lightweight swear phrase popped out of his mouth. I used to be stressed and checked out his face.

“Why did you cry?”

“Oh, that…”

“Have been you actually not feeling nicely?”

“Sure, I wasn’t feeling nicely.”

In reality, I feel my physique is sort of full of life now, however I answered that method as a result of I didn’t know why I cried,

“Since when did it damage?”

“Since three days in the past.”

“…It will need to have been proper after spending the night time with me.”

In distinction to the fierce environment, a bitter murmur rang in my ears.

“I hope I didn’t damage you”

“You undoubtedly didn’t, Your Majesty.”

“I see, that is the way you idiot individuals.”

“Your Majesty?”

He took his hand away from my eyes. My coronary heart felt empty by the heat that disappeared.

“So, when will your physique get higher?”

“I’m virtually healed.”

“Yeah, that’s a reduction.”

Raymond, who raised himself over me, stared down at my face.

“Actually, good.”

“It’s my style from begin to finish.”

That is what I’ve already heard from him as soon as within the time I had already skilled. He was very amazed at me, who had an ideal assortment of tastes, as if had been tailor-made for him.

“I believed that was actually unusual.”

The corners of his mouth had been full of cynicism

Raymond was a bored and cynical particular person in all the pieces, however he was so sizzling when he cherished me. I assume that’s why all the pieces burned with out leaving a handful of ash, within the flame named “love.”

Kailos informed me that sacrificing oneself is love. In line with his principle, I, who cherished Kailos, and the emperor, who cherished me, it was all love.

However now the query stays, is it actually like to want for another person’s happiness whereas destroying your self? Did Emperor Raymond actually love me?

The tip, each me, who cherished Kailos, and Raymond, who cherished me, died. Unrequited love left solely such a tragic finish.

‘If that’s actually love, isn’t love an pointless emotion?

Love.

“Chloe.”

Raymond requested me, “Are you content?”

For a second, I didn’t perceive what he stated, so I appeared up blankly. Raymond smiled, making eye contact with me.

“It doesn’t imply a lot. It’s the psychology of a person who desires his girl, with whom he spends the night time, to be comfortable and never cry.”

“Oh…”

I murmured and bowed my head. Then a barely decrease and extra severe voice rang above my head.

“So, Chloe. Are you content proper now?”

I couldn’t reply. To him who wished for my happiness, I couldn’t say I used to be sad.