(…… the place am I?)

I muttered to myself as I seemed round on the surroundings round me.

There are uncommon moments once I notice that I’m dreaming of the surroundings I’m seeing, however I acknowledged this second intuitively.

The room, which was white and had a lived-in really feel to it, appeared to be a room in a hospital.

(…What? Is that this a dream?)

I didn’t wish to keep nonetheless, so I attempted to get off the bed, however then I noticed that my physique was in a state the place I couldn’t transfer.

My arms have been bandaged and my legs have been hung in order that they have been immobilized. It felt as if my waist was additionally stiffened.

The dream was so sensible that I started to marvel if it was actually a dream.

The exterior sensations in my physique, after all, but in addition the fact of the expertise made me really feel as if I had skilled it myself.

(Aaaah, check…I can’t converse in any respect!)

Since I can not transfer my mouth, I can not converse, so I can solely converse from my thoughts like this.

I can’t transfer my physique and I can’t speak,…… but when I’m dreaming, there should be loads of goals the place I fly within the sky, use swords and magic, and beat my enemies to a pulp, however that’s not very considerate.

The door to the hospital room opened simply as I used to be excited about what I might do if I didn’t get up.

“….Ah Towa!!”

It was Shu who entered.

He seemed just a little youthful than he does now, however I couldn’t say something, so I needed to anticipate him to say one thing.

Seeing me on the mattress, Shu’s expression regularly grew to become distorted and he started to cry, tears streaming down his face and snot dripping down his nostril.

I’m sorry …… I’m sorry Towa! I……I used to be trying the opposite method, and Towa was!”

I used to be simply trying on and didn’t perceive why Shu was crying.

However for some cause, my coronary heart is boiling sizzling with anger, and I really feel that this anger might be directed at Shu.

After all, I didn’t know something about this anger,……, however someway it appeared to me that there was nothing incorrect with having this anger.

“Don’t cry, Shu.”

My mouth moved of its personal accord.

I used to be stunned at myself for instantly talking up, however I simply instructed Shu the phrases that got here out from inside me.

“Which means this type of factor can occur. Don’t fear an excessive amount of, Shu, I’m actually glad you’re okay.”

[….. why …… Why are you crying so much? I’m the one who wants to cry!?]

Other than the phrases I uttered, my voice overlapped together with his, as if in a double voice.

On the floor, I used to be involved to not fear Shu, and but secretly, my rage in opposition to him was in management.

This was positively the anger held by Towa, which grew to become one as if it assimilated with me.

(…… Aah, it’s this!)

Then I started to recollect.

I remembered why I used to be on the hospital mattress, why my physique was in such a large number, and why I used to be so offended at Shu.

It’s easy —- I had an accident.

I used to be in a daze and ran out into the street, and I took his place within the accident.

“That is horrible. I can’t transfer my physique correctly. I don’t understand how I’m going to go to the toilet. I’m embarrassed to have the nurses handle me.”

[Why …… Why this time of year! The tournament is around the corner …… I worked so hard to make my mom happy!!!]

Tournaments……Sure, there’s a soccer event arising quickly.

The entire membership labored arduous, practiced arduous, and lots of people cheered us on, and I’ve been attempting my greatest to reside as much as that help!

My mother even took day off work to return cheer me on! Ayana stated she would positively come to help me too!!!!

(It’s disgusting… my feelings are blended up…)

It was bizarre as a result of I felt like me and Towa’s feelings have been getting blended up in a jumbled mess.

After I was unable to even utter that weak sound, and was nonetheless dealing with the 2 blended feelings, an individual who appeared to be the physician entered the hospital room.

“…… Yukishiro-kun.”

The physician seemed as if he was having issue saying it, however started to talk slowly, as if he was firmly reminding me.

“Yukishiro-kun, let me be frank with you. The fractures in your limbs are severe, however above all, your again is much worse. It might be troublesome so that you can play soccer within the subsequent event, and even perhaps to train for a yr or so.”

The physician’s phrases simply minimize into my coronary heart.

I used to be shocked as if I had been stabbed by means of the chest with a knife,……, however with a purpose to preserve my composure, I opened my mouth with amusing.

“Of….course. It’s not possible for me on this state. …… hahaha, it might probably’t be helped”

[……]

I not hear the voice that’s managed by rage.

My mouth strikes with out my permission, phrases are spewed out with out my permission, and tears don’t move regardless that my coronary heart is a large number and I can’t do something about it.

I don’t know if this is because of Towa’s personal energy or as a result of he’s so shocked that he can not settle for the fact.

“Then I’ll go away you.”

“…. sure.”

The instructor then went to the door and was changed by Ayana and Osamu’s mom, Hatsune-san, who got here in.

“Is every thing okay ……?”

Ayana’s eyes have been vivid crimson as she approached me directly and held my hand.

Seeing her like that made me cry a lot, and I felt so sorry for having brought about her unimaginable fear.

“I made you are concerned ……, didn’t I?”

“After all you probably did! After I noticed Towa-kun who collapsed and stopped transferring, I …… uaaaahhhh!”

Ayana’s head, which had began to cry, was gently stroked with the one hand that was transferring.

It was just a little inappropriate, however I used to be completely happy to see her cry like this, and I attempted to smile as a result of I didn’t need Ayana to cry any extra.

However then I heard Hatsune’s voice.

“Shu, keep outdoors with Ayana. I would like to speak to him.”

At Hatsune’s phrases, Shu nodded his head and went outdoors, however Ayana didn’t transfer from her spot, as if she would by no means go away me.

Though she gave me a troubled look in response to Ayana, Hatsune-san instantly turned her reproachful eyes on me.

I do know that Shu’s household, together with Hatsune-san, and Ayana’s mom don’t suppose properly of me due to my previous historical past of taking Ayana round. …… So what’s going to she say to me?

“What would you’ve gotten performed if both Shu or Ayana-chan had been injured? It’s factor it was solely you who obtained damage.”

“…… eh?”

“!?”

For a second, I didn’t perceive what she had stated to me.

Ayana appeared to be in the identical boat, elevating her face from its inclined place with a begin and Hatsune-san as if she have been one thing unbelievable.

I used to be shocked, however Hatsune continued to talk to me.

“Look, I don’t want you. Shu has Ayana, and Ayana has Shu. You’re a foreigner, and you’ve got are available, so you have to have been punished.”

“Hatsune-san! What on earth are you saying!?”

As I listened to Ayana’s loud voice, I too puzzled what on this planet she was speaking about.

I used to be solely there with them as their pal,…… what on this planet did I do?

“…… Oh, I see. I see.”

“Did I say something?”

“No, nothing.”

I see, their world is full by itself.

The world by which Shu and Ayana are united, that’s the world these individuals need, and they won’t tolerate some other …… ah kusu, for some cause that makes me snicker.

It might be an almost not possible concept, not less than on this planet I lived in, however I assume it’s due to this world that there might be individuals with such damaged personalities.

(…… I’m wondering what Towa considered this.)

Not like me, who can have a look at this case objectively to some extent, regardless that I’m linked to Towa’s feelings, I’m wondering how Towa felt when he acquired these phrases.

Did he resent it or just hand over?

After that, Hatsune-san appeared to have completed what she needed to say and left the hospital room, leaving an air of inexpressibility between Ayana and me.

“I didn’t suppose she’d hate me that a lot.”

“Towa-kun,…….”

Whereas I don’t suppose she wanted to say a lot, I perceive the concept that Towa is sort of a pest that’s destroying their field backyard,…… though I by no means wish to perceive, I perceive the concept that they’ve.

“……………”

I used to be downcast, however now my coronary heart was supported by Ayana, who was proper there by my facet.

After I reached out to Ayana, she instantly wrapped her arms round me, and I used to be in a position to really feel the heat of her arms.

With this sense of safety in my coronary heart, I requested Ayana for a favor.

That is one thing I might by no means have stated beneath regular circumstances, however now could be the time to say it.

“…… can I’ve a hug? Is it okay if I cry?”

“……..I’m effective with it.””

I rested my face on Ayana’s chest.

The comfortable contact on my cheeks and the great scent make me really feel comfy. …… Ayana’s heat envelopes me as if to heal the injuries I had acquired in my coronary heart.

“…… Kusu…… Kusu……!!!”

And I cried.

I couldn’t cry any extra as I used to be held in Ayana’s arms, and she or he let me cry profusely, as if to say that I had let all my tears out.

The entire time I used to be crying out loud, Ayana by no means let go of me.

I didn’t know what Ayana seemed like, besides, I used to be really saved by her presence.

“……?”

After some time, I lastly calmed down and tried to maneuver away from Ayana, however she wouldn’t let me go.

“Ayana?”

I referred to as her title and heard the coldest voice I had ever heard.

That is ridiculous. Why ought to Towa-kun must undergo this? Why do it’s a must to be talked down to love that?”

Ayana’s phrases didn’t cease and continued.

“Although Towa-kun is the one struggling essentially the most… I want I might take your house if I might. Why did she say such horrible factor about you—-“

“…………….”

Ayana appears to have felt my indignation too.

I consider it’s the utmost kindness one can have for others, to have the ability to grieve for others.

I might be simply as offended at Ayana if one thing occurred to her. …… Nonetheless, plainly Ayana’s anger has a barely totally different that means.

“Are these individuals …… huh? Are these individuals? Are these…… individuals like us? No, these issues are usually not individuals. …… these issues are …… these individuals are…”

Ayana stored mumbling in a voice that had misplaced its intonation.

I sensed a wierd environment from Ayana, and I moved away from her as if to place just a little energy into my physique.

Ayana was observing me along with her eyes rolled again, maybe in a slight shock, and the environment she had been in earlier was gone.

“……fuuu”

Though I missed the sensation of Ayana’s embrace, I lay down on the mattress with my again to her, exhausted regardless that it was solely a dream.

Ayana was very attentive to me as she laid me down on the mattress.

“Aren’t you going dwelling?”

“I’ll keep just a little longer. I’m certain Mimi will likely be right here in a short time.”

“I see. …… Mother is meant to be at work.”

“Towa-kun was in an accident, so it’s solely pure that she would come.”

“…….Proper”

I’m wondering if my mother will cry too,……I’m certain she’s going to.

I’ll must consolation my mother someway then, and it appears to be like like I’ll must do my greatest to try this.

“Towa-kun.”

“Sure?”

“I come each day to go to you. I don’t need you to really feel lonely.”

“I’m glad to listen to that, however I don’t need you to return each day. ……”

“No can do. I’ll positively come each day.”

Ayana’s agency willpower loosened my cheeks.

“Can I ask you for a favor, then? I wish to speak to Ayana each day too.”

“Sure!”

She lastly smiled at me.

The unhappy look on her face was gone, and the smile she had all the time proven me got here again to life.

(……I bear in mind this dream? Will I neglect it once I get up?)

I used to be frightened about whether or not I might neglect this dream, which positively obtained to the center of Towa, however someway I felt it might be all proper.

I might always remember this, I had no proof, however I used to be certain of it.

I had a dream by which I realized about Towa’s hidden previous, and on the identical time, it was a painful dream that tore my coronary heart out of my physique.

“…… Ayana, I’ll…”

I vowed increasingly strongly to guard her …… and to guard her coronary heart.