House. She preferred the sound the phrase made circling her thoughts.

Together with his mouth hovering enticingly close to hers, her arms slipped round his neck and her lips parted in invitation, to him, to this, to there being a risk of them. Longing, hope and promise danced, pirouetting and swaying her coronary heart as she felt the feeling of his coronary heart irrevocably catching hers. And although she’d sensed all of it alongside, now she knew and not using a shadow of doubt that he was a person who would all the time be there for her. It doesn’t matter what. Regardless of the circumstances. And that’s proper when she realised that she’d by no means, ever felt like this earlier than. The explosion in her chest, this, that, he was her love. Connor Gunn was the one and solely love of her life. By no means had she possessed a uncooked have to personal one other, like she needed to personal him proper this very second. Actuality may take a again seat as a result of for now, on this mesmerising second, she needed to point out him simply how deeply she liked him.

However then, simply as she was about to climb onto his lap, so she may very well be even nearer to him nonetheless, he stopped, pulled again just a bit and smiled in a method that informed her he knew precisely what she was considering. And that drove her wilder nonetheless. Not solely may this man scorch her pores and skin with a single look, a single contact, he additionally held a flame to her soul. He knew her, like no different, from the within out. And he liked her for all that she was, all that she had been and all she was but to be. And he or she, terrifyingly, excitingly, exhilaratingly, felt the identical about him.

However you’ve a lot to type out, again in London, it may very well be months earlier than you see one another once more, and in that point you can drift aside, or he may meet another person, somebody higher than you, or …

Sensing her hesitation, Connor brushed his lips over to her ear and whispered. ‘Don’t assume, Sammie, simply really feel.’ Trailing his fingers up her again, he despatched quivers to locations she didn’t even know existed.

A shuddering sigh escaped her as she recognised she wanted him simply as a lot as she wanted to breathe. And her silence was all he required. As he trailed his mouth down her neck, goosebumps rose as he gently tipped her head again and coated her throat with feathering kisses. Her pulse skittered, then pounded, then skittered once more. His sizzling contact branded her pores and skin as she melted towards him, freefalling into the dizzying rush of sensation his sluggish, heat kisses had been giving her. His fingers tangled into her hair, pulling her nearer nonetheless. Gripping his shirt, she straddled his lap and her starvation for him turned ravenous. She needed him. All of him. Now. All the time. Eternally. She felt all of the items of herself she’d pushed to the depths, they usually rose, and bloomed like a sunflower turning in the direction of the brilliant sunshine. All that mattered was this second. And them. He took management of the kiss, as if he’d been ravenous for her all these years. And with the best way he was touching her, kissing her, loving her, she believed wholeheartedly that he had been. Rising together with her wrapped up in his arms, he carried her in the direction of the doorway. She dropped her legs, and as her toes hit the ground, they stumbled backwards till her again got here up towards the wall.

His breath was ragged. ‘I’m sorry, Sammie, I ought to cease this now, earlier than …’

‘No, please, don’t cease.’ Samantha felt as if she was about to burst into flames. She didn’t need this to finish, not ever. She reached for him. ‘Please, Connor, I would like you, and I would like this.’

‘However what is that this?’

She cupped his cheeks. ‘I don’t know.’

Connor slowly shook his head. ‘I can’t, we will’t.’ He turned away. ‘Belief me, it’s higher if we don’t take this any additional, at the least not till we speak about some vital issues, and the way it might all work after that.’

‘Sure, I suppose you’re proper.’ A vice tightened round her coronary heart.

He shoved a hand by way of his hair. ‘I’m sorry, Sammie, I shouldn’t have made a transfer like that.’

Fraught, wanting to make things better so there wasn’t a bizarre feeling between them, she tried to chuckle. ‘Ha, yeah, we should always have learnt higher from the primary time, hey?’ She didn’t need him regretting kissing her, and making gentle of it was all she may assume to do proper now.

However the look on his face was evident he didn’t discover the remark humorous, within the slightest. ‘Sammie, come on, we don’t want to return there.’

Disgrace and embarrassment at her lack of tact made her cheeks sizzling. Then her voice of cause stormed to the forefront, firmly reminding her that she knew higher than to behave like some lovesick idiot. Being reckless all the time obtained her into hassle and inevitably led to her being badly damage. Indignant with herself for not being the one to use the brakes, she turned her again to him and bit again a sudden onslaught of tears. Regardless of how a lot she informed herself she shouldn’t really feel this manner about him, she couldn’t assist herself. And if she had been being sincere with herself, she nonetheless needed him, greater than ever. And he or she loathed herself for feeling so strongly, when she knew he was proper. They wanted to have some arduous conversations earlier than they took issues any additional.

‘Sammie, let’s not let this spoil the bond we’ve rebuilt, hey.’ Connor got here to her aspect, his gaze beseeching as he introduced his hand to her cheek. ‘You imply an excessive amount of to me for us to half methods like we did the final time you left.’

Unable to kind phrases in her tight throat, she nodded.

He opened his arms and he or she didn’t resist his kind-heartedness. She pressed her cheek to his chest as his arms got here round her, remarkably protectively and somewhat possessively. If solely she may keep. If solely he may depart and are available together with her. If solely they might meet within the center. Nevertheless it wasn’t that simple, they had been now not footloose and fancy-free youngsters with infinite alternatives earlier than them. His life was right here, and hers wasn’t in the meanwhile.

CHAPTER

20

The subsequent day, after a sleepless evening, Samantha tried to maintain herself busy by doing chores. Grabbing the final of her garments from the drier after which carrying the superbly heat mountain by way of to the lounge room, she dropped the pile onto the sofa. However earlier than she folded all the pieces, she did what she’d been craving to do since flicking her eyes open at daybreak and grabbed her cellphone. It was time to set issues straight. Heading outdoors and onto the sun-soaked verandah, she settled herself on the daybed. She was nervous to press Connor’s quantity, however like him, she didn’t need something coming between them earlier than she headed again to London. She craved to carry onto the hope that they may nonetheless stand an opportunity, if she may get her life sorted out. She needed to have the conversations they wanted to have, and what higher method than to ask if he needed to spend the day together with her, so they might discuss all the pieces by way of when the correct second arose.

The ringing of her cellular as she was curling her legs up beneath her made her bounce. She couldn’t assist the smile when she noticed who it was. ‘Hey, you, I used to be nearly to name you.’

‘Morning Sammie, nice minds assume alike.’

‘They positive do.’

‘So.’ His tone was a lightweight and playful. ‘Why had been you going to name me?’

‘No.’ She tipped her head. ‘You rang me, so that you go first.’

‘Okay. I used to be questioning if you happen to’d like to return over for a scoot round within the chopper, adopted by that swim we’ve been speaking about, however haven’t obtained round to but?’

The hope she was barely holding onto flourished. ‘I’d like to.’

‘Superior, I can come get you, if you happen to like?’

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