When their shift ended the following morning, Bryce, Matt, and Toby headed to the car parking zone collectively. That they had all spent the evening at Bryce’s home, however Matt and Toby drove in collectively in Toby’s truck. The opposite firefighters would possibly assume they’d determined to carpool, however too many oddities, even when every was explainable, would possibly increase suspicions.

“So what occurred?” Matt requested as they stood by Toby’s truck.

Bryce blew out a protracted breath. “I’ll observe you residence and inform you there.”

Toby opened his door and hopped into the driving force’s seat. “Let’s get going, then.”

However Matt stayed the place he was. “Why our place? Don’t we have to let Rollo out?”

“I must get some sleep earlier than my shift at Nathan’s, so I assumed we may speak there after which I’ll head residence by myself.” And I could be about to interrupt up with you, and I don’t wish to need to kick you out of my home.

Bryce ran eventualities by means of his head as he drove. He’d inform them what occurred first, that was the straightforward half, embarrassing however straightforward. After that, what may he say? That he couldn’t do that anymore, couldn’t disguise? However truthfully, even when they stopped seeing one another, they might nonetheless be compromised on the job. That they had no enterprise being in the identical unit. He wasn’t going to cease caring for them, and if he broke it off, there can be a hell of a number of anger blended into the robust emotions they already had. A really harmful combine to deliver into the sector.

Fuck! This case sucked. Why had he listened to his dick as a substitute of his mind? That ain’t acquired nothin’ to do with what your dick desires. Grey’s phrases echoed in his thoughts. He didn’t need Grey to be proper, however he was. Bryce was listening to his coronary heart, and it was even more durable to disclaim than his dick. Fuck, did that make him outdated? He’d by no means been this mushy gushy earlier than, however leaving Matt and Toby wouldn’t simply be about giving up the good intercourse. Bryce may get laid simply sufficient. He may even discover somebody who’d be a match for what he wanted if he put just a little effort into it. However to seek out another person who made him really feel the best way he did with Matt and Toby, to seek out somebody he needed to spend all his free time with, somebody he needed to snuggle up with, that wasn’t going to occur.

He’d spent an excessive amount of time working throughout his first years at AFRD to have time for greater than informal hookups. Finally, he’d managed a couple of brief relationships. Possibly that was all he was meant to have. If somebody had instructed him a 12 months in the past that he was going to fall for somebody, a lot much less two someones, he would’ve run as quick as he may. However he wasn’t afraid of dedication now. He needed to make it work, however they’d solely been collectively for about six weeks. Was he actually going to count on them to show a brief fling right into a long-term dedication? He wanted to consider what was finest for Matt and Toby.

He parked behind Toby when he reached their house. His arms shook as he stepped out of his SUV. This wasn’t going to go effectively, as a result of he was going to do the suitable factor and allow them to go. How had he let himself get so far?

It’s known as love, you asshole.

No, it’s known as fucking up.

You’re so going to remorse this.

I already do.

He pressured himself to place one foot in entrance of the opposite. He may do that. He may go into their house and inform them issues had been over. Just a few steps from the door, he stopped, afraid he was about to lose the eggs and toast he’d wolfed down on the station. When he had his abdomen underneath management, he stepped inside, not bothering to knock. They had been gone that. “Hey!”

“We’re within the kitchen,” Matt known as.

Regardless of the early hour, he longed to ask for a drink to fortify him for what he needed to do.

“You seem like hell!” Toby noticed. “What occurred?”

“I nearly acquired us all caught. That’s what.” The phrases got here out offended, although Bryce hadn’t meant them to. “Sorry.” He raked a hand by means of his hair.

Toby moved towards him, however Bryce backed away. If Toby touched him, he’d lose his resolve, and so they’d in all probability all find yourself in mattress.

“Matt walked out of the bathe yesterday afternoon, and I couldn’t cease staring. I meant to ship him a textual content telling him what I had deliberate for tonight.” Bryce paused, making an attempt to drag his ideas collectively and make himself go on.

Toby nodded, encouraging him. “And…”

“I despatched it to WT.”

“I figured that a lot out. What did he say?”

“He didn’t join it with both of you. Figured it was for some man I’m seeing, somebody random. However what if he’d been within the locker room too or he’d already had suspicions?”

“How the hell does he not?” Matt requested, the phrases bitter. “We suck at hiding it.”

“You didn’t use to,” Bryce stated. “It’s me.”

“No, it’s all of us,” Matt insisted.

“This isn’t working,” Bryce stated.

The colour drained from Toby’s face. “Is it as a result of we waited? As a result of we wouldn’t speak about outing ourselves? We put an excessive amount of strain on you, and now?—”

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