“Oh. Properly, I don’t learn about love.” Or do I?

Marilee rolls her eyes. “Woman, I’ve seen the way in which you have a look at him. The best way he seems at you. And I’d love nothing greater than so that you can be legally my sister sometime—though you’re already the sister of my coronary heart.”

Ugh, this lady. I deliver it in for a fierce hug round her neck earlier than pulling again. I rub the sting of my sandwich wrapper between my fingers. “I’m scared, Mare. What you stated about me not residing right here anymore…properly, we haven’t even mentioned that in any respect. Like, I don’t know the place his head is at. What if he simply plans to depart once more, it doesn’t matter what?”

“Are you pondering he’ll change his thoughts or one thing?” Mare pushes her glasses up her nostril. “You knew from the start he was leaving on the finish of the summer season. Is it actually truthful to imagine he’ll change all his plans? That is his dream, Lucy.” Her tone is mushy, her eyes crammed with love. In solely the way in which that Mare can, she speaks reality with out being harsh.

“I do know, however…does he simply assume I’ll up and transfer away from the one place that’s ever felt like dwelling? As a result of that doesn’t appear truthful both.”

“Perhaps he’s simply pondering you’ll do lengthy distance for a bit.”

“Yeah. Perhaps.” However lengthy distance is simply a brief resolution. We each know that. And I’m not a planner by any means, however I’m wonderful at maintaining these low expectations. At creating conditions that can consequence within the least quantity of harm later.

Is it who I’m, or a realized habits after the upheavals in my childhood and teenage years? Both approach, I’m undecided I like this specific character trait.

“It sounds such as you guys must have a extremely open dialogue about all of this,” Marilee says.

“You’re proper.” I do know she is. “However what if we discover out we actually can’t work it out? That we would like various things? As a result of that’s terrifying.” The concept that I’ve lastly discovered the person of my desires…and would possibly lose him in a single fell swoop.

“Higher to search out out now that you really want various things than after you’ve been married for six years.” Her phrases are mushy, however certain. “And, sure, it’s scary to take an opportunity on love. However Lucy Reynolds, you’re one of many bravest individuals I do know.”

There she goes once more with the irony. “I don’t really feel very courageous.”

“That’s the factor about bravery. You’re scared…and do what scares you anyway.”

Okay, then. Appears to be like like I’m having a dialog with Blake in regards to the future.

And shortly, earlier than I lose my nerve.

twenty-seven

BLAKE

I’m not one to play hooky from work. Don’t assume I’ve completed it a day in my life.

Till now.

It’s eleven a.m. on a Wednesday, and I’m nonetheless in my health club shorts and a T-shirt—mainly what I wore to mattress. Since I returned from Los Angeles final night time, Lucy and I’ve been up this morning cooking and bantering and kissing. Making up for misplaced time.

As a result of the entire time I used to be gone, all I may take into consideration was getting dwelling to her.

The radio’s on low within the kitchen whereas I stack the final of the breakfast dishes—sticky with pancake syrup and egg yolk—within the sink. Turning, I discover a pajama-clad Lucy at my elbow, our empty espresso mugs in her hand. She hip bumps me and I step out of the way in which, however solely simply sufficient for her to slip her physique in entrance of mine.

She locations the mugs within the sink, and I lean ahead to lure her there, my palms on both aspect of her, her again in opposition to my chest.

This needs to be absolute heaven. In any case, I missed Lucy one thing fierce whereas I used to be in Los Angeles.

However whereas I’ve tried to push the occasions of my go to to town out of my mind this morning—even for a short time—I can’t overlook one little reality.

Lucy and I would like to speak.

Ugh. Can’t I simply keep right here on this bubble along with her and deny my obligations, deny {that a} world exterior of this one even exists?

I lean in and place a kiss on her shoulder, then nuzzle my nostril in opposition to her neck. After being aside the final two days, I can’t not contact her. On the subject of Lucy Reynolds, I’m a weak man.

Lucy leans her head to the aspect, giving me sufficient entry to press my lips to her pores and skin. Her tiny sigh of delight stokes the warmth inside me, and I nip my approach up her lengthy, swish neck. Then she turns to face me, slipping one hand round me, her fingers flirting with the again of my shirt collar.

Yeah, we will discuss later.

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