Chapter 235: Gentle-Hearted

DISCLAIMER: This story is NOT MINE IN ANY WAY. That honor has gone to the gorgeous bastard Ryuugi. This has been pulled from his Spacebattles publishment at threads/rwby-the-gamer-the-games-we-play-disk-five.341621/. Anyway on with the present…err learn.

Gentle-Hearted

I used to be two and onea division after which a unity. Traces blurred, edges light, after which there was a connection. My twin and I have been, in spite of everything, initially the identical. Have been nonetheless one, for all that they have been additionally separate. Linking themselves collectively was as straightforward as coming aside, if considerably extra spectacular.

It could not be helped, although. They have been the Twin Contending Forces. To unite, they’d no alternative however to return aside and forcibly merge, splitting alongside the strains that separated them in an effort to come again collectively. As they divided, they felt themselves waver, as if the solidity of their existences had been disrupted. In that second, they have been power as a lot as matter, wavelengths and indicators that communicated and aligned. On the similar time, they have been matter and antimatter, one thing certain to disrupt and eradicate on contact. Although they might draw strains like ‘the unique’ right here and ‘the second’ there, the reality of the matter was that they have been an identical, items break up equally and housing halves of the identical soul. If something, they have been each copies and it was solely by merging that they might recreate the unique.

And wasn’t that was the purpose? They have been Thaumiel, the Duality and Twins of God. The division of that which is ideal solely in unityof Keter, the Crown. It solely made sense, then, that Keter be right here as welland he was.

On the heart of all of it, there was gentle. A riotous calamity of energy and forces, solely barely contained by their Gentle Elemental’s energy. They could not blame him for struggling, take into account the magnitude of the facility in questionRaven’s temporal trick had created one thing that had shocked even him, a cycle of endlessly rising gentle. That Keter was capable of management it in any respect, even only for a second, was astonishing.

However then, he was the Gentle, or no less than my Gentle. There was extra at work now than a wrestle of bodily forces; this was as a lot a psychological effort as a matter of energy and a take a look at of being greater than even that. Who they have been, what they have been, what they believed, what they hoped for, and what they intendedthe solutions to these questions meant greater than any quantity of MP, right here and now.

And fortunately, I knew all of these solutions now, or no less than thought I did. There was nonetheless an excellent deal lacking by way of reminiscences and such, however that was okay. I used to be ‘Keter’, what laid above the thoughts’s capability to understand. Even when I could not bear in mind, I knew and I used to be. I used to be Jaune Arc and Jian Bing and Keter and Metatron. I used to be meand I merely was.

It was sufficient. My divided selves absolutely misplaced coherence, coming aside and flowing again into place. They got here collectively like a collision of particles, a fusion along with a reunificationa resonance and a chemical course of, a launch of power and a change of state. Folks existed on numerous ranges that the majority of them weren’t even conscious of, however as I grew to become one once more, I used to be conscious of all of them. I grew to become myself once more as my halves underwent a convergence of being.

And trapped between them, held in place by my will and my soul, was Keterand all the facility we would managed to collect due to Raven. If it had been energy alone, it would not have mattered; the reunification of my halves operated solely partially in Malkuth and could not be affected by a gathering of power any greater than it could possibly be stopped by bodily distance or obstacles.

However as a result of Keter was there, it was extra than simply lots of power. All all through that conflagration of energy was my Elementala a part of my soul given bodily kind on the earth by attaching itself to one thing else; part of the world with ‘substance,’ one thing that did not apply to a soul by itself. Like Thaumiel, it was part of me, without delay separate and united. That was how expertise like Agni labored, in spite of everything; they quickly fused these components again collectively, similar to I used to be piecing myself again collectively now.

And people similarities have been why I would first thought of this, why I would had the concept and examined it out.

I would obtained Agni and the talents prefer it by utilizing Tiferet, however the course of wasn’t a fusion as such. I wasn’t completely certain the way it labored, however I used to be fairly certain it did so alongside strains of similarity. Slightly than creating expertise, I used to be discovering them, having my Semblance draw upon historic figuring out in a style much like nonetheless it created ability books. I gave it reference factors and the facility it wanted to seek for one thing helpful, connecting the dots I laid out for it. At a guess, that had one thing to do with the character of my Semblance or the character of Keterwhat remained above ‘information’ or ‘thought,’ above ‘motion’ or ‘formulation.’ The spark that finally grows into one thing extra. It was in all probability linked to why I used to be so expertise with sensory methods, too, and why my soul had 1,000,000 eyes.

Even so, Tiferet could not do all the things; it had its limits. The primary, in fact, was the necessity for reference factors, permitting it to seek out one thing particular. With out that, I assumed there was merely an excessive amount of to seek out something specificif I used to be drawing from a properly that went above thought and even separation and individuality, the sign to noise ratio was in all probability fairly extreme. That could possibly be handled by studying extra expertise and have become simpler as Tiferet’s stage improved, presumably permitting it to seek out issues with much less particular data.

The second was trickier to work aroundTiferet could not discover what wasn’t there. It was the middle of the Sephirot, connecting each level however Malkuth, the place the place all the things would take shapebut it wanted to have taken form for Tiferet to work. Somebody wanted to have put the items collectively, to created outcomes and accomplished a course of for it to exist as a reality as a substitute of an idea.

That wasn’t even a weak point, per se; Tiferet was a degree of integration, permitting me to face on the shoulders of giants. That is what Mankind did, in science and literature and all the things else. We constructed upon successes and tried to study from failures. My energy, nice because it wasI owed all of it to others. To the numerous individuals who’d struggled and works for years or many years to create the talents I now utilized in live performance. That I would mastered and mixed to create one thing better.

However the reality remained that Tiferet could not create thingscouldn’t construct issues by itself. It was the place issues got here collectively, drawing up information and concepts and drawing down what had been misplaced from human reminiscence. It was a steadiness of surrounding forcesbut the one Sephirot that it did not contact straight was Malkuth, the Kingdom. As a substitute, it touched upon the Basis of Yesod, as a result of that was what it had offered.

Tiferet could not create thingsbut I may. I had, with magic Missile so way back. Given the selection, I most popular to utilize what had already been perfected, however I may make new issues as properly.

The remaining was trickier. Agni, Kubera, Varuna and the others had a number of issues in widespread and energy was solely one in every of them. Agni had fashioned in battle, Kubera within the face of the loss of life of his folks, Varuna within the wake of unbelievable catastrophe. The presence of energy to attract upon in every case, but additionally want. Necessity was the mom of invention, and it performed a job.

That was the primary hurdle I would had to determine a approach round. And I had motivation, sure, and a determined want, however they have been calm issues, mental. I wanted energy to defeat a foe, however they have been a distant one, shadowed in unknowns. I used to be scared of Malkuth and his minions, for fully logical causes; they have been nightmarishly highly effective, in spite of everything. I knew I needed to defeat them one way or the other, for me, my pals, and your entire worldbut it was just a little arduous to be that arduous pressed when mulling issues over on a sofa. Even with out the Gamer’s Thoughts, I am undecided if I may have finished it; I used to be anxious and determined, however not like I would been when it was my father on the road.

In fact, that had been one other a part of why I would put myself on a time restrict, why I would given myself solely per week to arrange. Malkuth was a world-ending menace, sure, however it was arduous to essentially conceptualize or really feel a hazard that was wrapped in secrets and techniques and maybes. Malkuth’s energy, the energy of the Legendary GrimmI needed to see it for myself. Needed to take a look at their limits and mine, push myself to the breaking level, and never simply know however expertise what I used to be up in opposition to, what was at stake.

Gilgamesh had pushed me greater than I had been shortly, however even he hadn’t been sufficient in the long run. He harm me, may need even been capable of kill me early on if he’d wished to, however I would had loads of issues in my bag of methods and I would pulled them out one after one other. I would set issues up in my favor, modified the tide, and I would identified all of the whereas that I may win. That I would must be cautious, cautious, and do issues proper, however that this was a foe I used to be theoretically capable of defeat. He hadn’t been what I would wanted and if I would gained in opposition to him and Malkuth hadn’t appeared, I may need been relievedthis is all I used to be up in opposition to? Even when he turned out to be one of many weaker Legendary Grimm, if I may beat him, then with sufficient effort, sufficient time, I may defeat the others, too.

However Malkuth had appeared. He was weakened, restricted by his present kind, however he was right here, and I would thrown my finest hits at him.

He’d shrugged them off like rain. Crushed me. Terrified me when he tore aside my plans and captured Keter. Ripped by my obstacles and went after those I would beloved, forcing me to drag out the Arcanaand even then I would identified he was holding again. He even withstood an assault from Raven and I that may have annihilated me with ease.

If I could not even match him as he was nowthen how was I ever going to face the true deal. I would misplaced earlier than, when my earlier self had had centuries extra expertise and I used to be dropping once more now. Combating him, going through him, it had made me marvel. Possibly even doubt.

Good.

And to cape all of it off, I had a blurring of the self. That was the opposite factor these expertise had in commonan understanding of who they have been, but additionally a blurring of the strains. I knew who I used to be already, what my Elementals have been, however it hadn’t been sufficient.

This was one thing else. Thaumiel, pushed to its limits. Using Ohr Ein Sof, almost unmaking me every time. Coming aside and again togetherseeing, feeling, figuring out.

It made the distinction and all my items got here collectively finally. I felt energy flowing by my being, energy past wordsbut it was nothing in comparison with the knowledge, the sensation of wholeness and completion. The information of a easy reality.

I’m.

Opening the eyes of my new self, I noticed the world round me. Raven behind me, Malkuth earlier than me, each of them stopping simply to stare at what had occurred. In my coronary heart, I may really feel the Arcana shifting, and earlier than my eyes

You’ve got considered a brand new ability. Would you want to call it?

I paused for a second, contemplating it. Those that’d come earlier than meor maybe simply Tiferethad named expertise like this after themselves, or else had taken these names for their very own afterwards. Maybe they’d been their human names or the names of their Elementals or possibly they’d even discovered their true ones, as I had so way back. However in my case, what ought to that title be? Jaune? Jian? Keter? All names that have been mine, that have been essential to me.

However right here and now, figuring out what I used to be doing and why I used to be combating, with my purpose virtually in sightwith the pc I would left myself nonetheless ready

I suppose there was just one factor it could possibly be. Out loud, I may name it one thing else, however this ability was mine, the mix of all the things I used to be, and it deserved the title.

With a thought, I titled it Metatron.