Chapter 220: Strain

DISCLAIMER: This story is NOT MINE IN ANY WAY. That honor has gone to the gorgeous bastard Ryuugi. This has been pulled from his Spacebattles publishment at threads/rwby-the-gamer-the-games-we-play-disk-five.341621/. Anyway on with the present…err learn.

Strain

It was exhausting to explain what occurred once I unleashed Ohr Ein Sof, as a result of it wasn’t only a gathering of energy or an amazing assault, although it was additionally these issues. It was the Gentle, given form on the earth in a morehonest? Actual? In a more true sense then what was created by Lux Aeterna. The factor is, I did not know what the Gentle actually was or the place it got here from or the way it labored. There wasn’t a lot I might actually say about it, as a result of the Gentle was above even Keter, which in and of itself lay above the thoughts’s capacity to understand; it was fairly potential that any makes an attempt to actually describe or perceive it have been doomed from the beginning.

Nonetheless, I gave it my finest effort.

This world and all the things in it was the ‘Kingdom.’ It was the Gentle given type, thought utilized to motion, the fruits of a processthe results of the Tree of Life. The Sephirot, in a way and amongst many different issues, represented the move between two ends of a spectrum, the method through which one grew to become the opposite. On the one hand, there was the Gentle, one thing even I did not perceive besides in a imprecise sense; it was the true type of this world, the underlying precept behind all the things, the supply and the tip level. All the pieces on this world was a part of the Gentle, in a means much like how matter and power have been interchangeable; completely different states of the identical factor. Was there extra to it than that? Nearly actually. However that was the overall concept.

However the Tree of Life went each methods. Issues flowed down it to take form on the earth in methods each literal and metaphorical, and so they flowed again up todo one thing, I suppose. There was no means of figuring out what was up there and regardless of dying, I had no reminiscence of it, or a minimum of nothing my thoughts might make sense of. No matter got here after demise and earlier than rebirth was presumably up there someplace, which was one thing I discovered each fascinating and terrifying. To me, it was like a field holding the reply to one thing folks had puzzled about sinceprobably so long as Mankind has existed, however there was just one strategy to open it. That appeared becoming in a means; the saying went that in case you stopped studying, you began dyingwhich was relevant to me in a saddening variety of methods, reallybut in gentle of the existence of souls and reincarnation, I suppose that demise itself was a lesson of kinds. I hoped it was one I might realized from the primary time round, if that’s the case.

Ohr Ein Sof, nonetheless, was one thing specialthe Gentle With out Finish, flowing each up and down the Tree of Life. The materialization, or discount, or creation of the Gentle that ought to exist solely above Keter throughout the world of Malkuth.

My Gentle, particularly.

The second I initialized the ability, my energy flip in upon itself. My Aura appeared to shrink again into my pores and skin, together with the sunshine round me, power spiraling down into the middle of my being after which up, up, up, by means of the gateway of Sahasrara after which far past it. For a second, I felt like I might vanished, as if I might been consumed by it and sucked down some form of cosmic black gap, pulling in all the things round me within the course of. I felt it once I stopped being ‘me,’ as I used to be decreased to items that have been exhausting to label. A will, maybe, a thought, an awarenessand then nothing so simply outlined. In the long run, I used to be nothing however ‘one thing that exists’ and ‘one thing conscious of its existence.’ I wasn’t decreased to nothing, per se, however to a state of ‘one thing’ that was each infinitely distant and unspeakably near nothing.

And on the identical time, I grew to become one thing else. As I used to be boiled right down to nothing however ‘Me,’ all the things I used to be grew to become part of ‘Me.’ My recollections, my beliefs, my energy, my will, my actions and intentions, my hopes and desires, my physique, my voice, my skillseverything ‘I’ was revealed itself as nothing however part of ‘Myself’, luminous and endless and with out something to differentiate it from the remaining. Should you boiled all the things away and decreased me right down to probably the most primary stage, past physicality, motion, thoughts, or will, this was what remained.

‘Me.’ Not even Jaune Arc or Jian Bing or Keter or anything created by the labels of the world, however merely ‘Me.’ Or, maybe, ‘Metatron,’ for no matter distinction it made. And for a time period I could not acknowledge, a lot much less perceive, that was all I used to be.

After which the method reversed, and all the things that had been subsumed rose again to the floor. I existed, thought, remembered, understood, and was, in that second. I used to be right here, alive, human, and actual once more, in a means I might perceive.

However all that I used to be or had been? I introduced it alongside for the experience.

A skinny column of sunshine flashed from my outstretched hand to the middle of the Gilgamesh’s chest, no wider round then my pinky finger. For an instantaneous, that was all it was, one thing virtually unbelievably small for the method that had created itand then it expanded. I did not comply with it up with one other wave of energy or something of the kind, as a result of this wasn’t the devouring gentle of Lux Aeterna; the sunshine drew energy from itself, seemingly increasing it with out restrict. As a substitute of drawing energy into itself, it launched it into the world as if opening a door in a means that jogged my memory of Bianca. What had been a slim column of sunshine for a short second expanded rapidly right into a rising beam that would have devoured mountains. It grew to such an extent that the angle of the assault appeared to overflow its bounds, turning from an acute blast to an obtuse one as energy slipped over my hand and again, increasing in all instructions and slipping between the areas of my fingers. The sheer gentle of the assault virtually appeared to scrub the world away, decreasing it to an infinite airplane of brightness and energy that consumed each me and my goal.

Ohr Ein Sof (Energetic) LV1 EXP: 37.72% MP: 144000; Particular

The Infinite Gentle from which all issues are born, the reality that’s hidden behind all that’s. The soul of the consumer revealed throughout the Kingdom, briefly free of the chains that bind them to mortal type, has change into a model of annihilation for all that stands of their path. A ability that’s solely potential for these in a position to attain above the spheres and grasp the Gentle in its pure type, it has the ability to return issues to the best way they have been at first.

Slight probability of ‘Unmaking’ targets, returning them to a type that has no place inside this world.

Slight danger of ‘Unravelling.’

Injury will increase with understanding of the Self and nature of Emanation.

No. I might must time this proper.

“You play a harmful recreation,” He mentioned. “Whenever you come undone, there’s nothing to ensure you can put your self again collectively once more. It is an enviable weapon in some methods, however one which was misplaced for a reasonnamely, most people who used it wound up killing themselves within the course of.”

“Mm,” I hummed in acknowledgement, shrugging a shoulder once more as I returned my consideration to the dialog. “Such a sort warning. However then once more, I am not the one one who’d have to attend if I disappeared once more, am I? May it’s that you simply’re frightened about me?”

Gilgamesh chuckled barely at that.

“Maybe,” He acknowledged. “On the very least, it could be a shameif you have been to die, it could be a waste so that you can go in such a means. I might a lot reasonably tear you aside, I feel.”

“Aw,” I mentioned. “I am touched, actually.”

“Maybe so,” He answered. “Have you ever not thought-about whether or not this battle is even vital? When you have some concept of this place’s worth and our objectives, why are you so sure we would attempt to cease you?”

At that, I smiled and tilted my head.

“Oh, I am certain you’d let me waltz proper in if I requested properly,” I replied, solely a contact dryly. “I am only a contact much less sure as to what you’d do to me afterwards, so I needed to begin with a trust-building train.”

Gilgamesh tilted his head and solid a look over the mess I might made ofeverything.

“A trust-building train, is it?” He mused. “I do not fairly perceive.”

“It is easy, actually,” I informed him. “I do not belief any of you fuckers. This complete place has screamed lure from the second I heard of it and whereas it is a lure I’ve no selection however to spring, I feel I am going to really feel higher about it if I stroll over your corpses to do it. Therefore, constructing belief.”

Gilgamesh laughed outright at that, although there was a distinct form of edge to it now.

“I see,” He mentioned. “It is an attention-grabbing concept, I supposebut do you actually imagine that is how this battle shall go?”

“I favored my odds sufficient to point out up, did not I?” I answered earlier than slowly trying round. “And perhaps it is simply me, however you are place seems to be like its seen higher days, Gil.”

“I suppose I did not actually anticipate you to make issues simple,” The Grimm replied, purple eyes calm. “I am glad. Let’s each do our greatest to get pleasure from this temporary recreation, then.”

I whistled quietly and smiled.

“You wish to problem me to a recreation?” I requested him. “Have you learnt who I’m?”

Gilgamesh stepped ahead as an alternative of answering, vanishing abruptly a second laterand on the identical time, I launched my energy.