Chapter 20 – A Sense of Guilt, However…

Softly, I opened the door to the room.

In a dimly lit room, bare, she was sleeping.

I gently crawled into mattress.

“…Nao-kun.”

That startled me.

“E-Eri-chan… You’re awake?”

“Yeah… Did you go to the bathroom? That was a very long time.”

“S-Sorry…”

“I used to be lonely, ? Nao-kun wasn’t right here.”

Eri-chan turned her physique in the direction of me and her cheeks puffed out.

The expression on her face is cute.

“Hey, give me a hug?”

“S-Positive…”

A little bit hesitantly, I hugged Eri-chan underneath the futon…

We may really feel the temperature of one another’s pores and skin.

Eri-chan’s softness and… My firmness.

No, now I’m as limp as I might be.

As a result of just some moments in the past…

‘…Ahn! Naoyuki-kun, you’re superb!’

…I had s*x with Miyuki-san.

I’ve crossed the final line which I’ve been guarding for thus lengthy.

That is now a transparent betrayal.

No, it began a very long time in the past.

Eri-chan…

“…I’m sorry.”

“Nao-kun? It’s effective, you’re right here now, hugging me like this.”

Her kindness is so soothing to my coronary heart.

Let’s simply get it over with.

Lastly, I’ve good reminiscences.

I do know it’s very egocentric, however please forgive me.

Any further, I’ll solely do naughty issues with Eri-chan.

I’ll set up an excellent relationship with Miyuki-san as my girlfriend’s mom.

So please…

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How a lot time has handed?

Lastly, I bought out of the lavatory and sat down on the couch in the lounge.

“Hah~…”

My legs and toes are nonetheless shaking.

I can’t even stand up the steps.

I’ve no selection however to sleep right here tonight.

It’s the season when the nights are nonetheless chilly… However my physique is on hearth.

It’s been like this since he… Since Naoyuki-kun held me in his arms.

It was actually superb.

Partly as a result of he’s younger, however nonetheless… He’s superb.

I’m an outdated woman, and definitely not a virgin, however…

However he gave me my first expertise.

I used to be poked…very deep inside.

My late husband by no means bought that far.

Possibly he couldn’t attain it.

He all the time gave the impression to be escaping someplace.

Usually, it was all the time close to the doorway, and even when he went it, he solely went midway by means of.

Then, he would simply get it over with, and make himself really feel good.

I used to be left considerably unfulfilled and deserted…

So right this moment, for the primary time in my life, I used to be happy.

All due to him… Due to Naoyuki-kun.

“Fufu…”

I set free a chuckle.

However I instantly really feel responsible.

In fact, it’s due to my daughter, Eri.

This can be a clear betrayal.

Though it has occurred earlier than right this moment too…

“…With this, I’ll get it over with.”

Any further, I’ll keep an excellent relationship with Naoyuki-kun as my daughter’s boyfriend.

That’s why I would like the three of us to be collectively without end.

Sure, that’s why… We shouldn’t do these issues anymore…

“…Nnn.”

Naturally, my hand reached for my necessary place.

Just a few moments in the past, I used to be was a multitude, however now I’m overflowing once more.

I believed I had exhausted myself and dried up.

It simply retains on pouring out.

Oh no, if it’s like this…

“…Naoyuki-kun.”

I do know I shouldn’t, however…

On the very least, I hope you’ll forgive me for imagining it.

Remembering the primary and final communion we had simply had.

I spent a lonely night time.