“It’s high-quality. I’m high-quality.”

“It’s not fucking high-quality,” Stefania says, trying livid. “It’s bullshit.”

“I’ll speak to him.” Maddie’s already on the door. “You all simply keep calm, okay? We don’t must escalate issues.” She disappears inside.

“Ever since Renzo grew to become the Don, he’s been such a dickhead.” Stefania storms after Maddie, which I believe gained’t assist a lot.

Allegra stays with Gian. I can inform she needs to observe, however there’s an advanced historical past and perhaps she wouldn’t be capable to assist all that a lot.

“We’re heading out,” Saul broadcasts and takes my hand. I hate the look on his face—he’s doing his finest to cover his struggling, however I do know him nicely sufficient by now. It is a nightmare for him. This household is all the things, and if Renzo’s kicking him out, meaning he’s shedding a bit of himself. “Don’t get your self in additional hassle due to me,” he says.

“Don’t fear about us.” Gian glares again on the home. “Fear about Renzo.”

“It was nice assembly you,” Allegra says. “I’m sorry for all this weirdness. It’s not often so aggravating round right here.”

Saul pulls me away after we are saying our goodbyes, and as soon as we’re alone within the automotive, I pull his face towards me and kiss him.

That doesn’t appear to assist. He’s not hiding his ache anymore, and it’s like the enjoyment’s been sucked from him, dragged from his pores and skin and left to burn within the solar. I don’t know easy methods to assist—I can’t put him again collectively.

“We’ll be okay,” he says, and naturally now he’s attempting to consolation me.

“Renzo will change his thoughts. I promise, he’s going to.”

“Possibly.” He places the automotive in gear. “However I don’t know if I would like him to.”

“Saul, you don’t imply that.”

“I’ve you.” A few of his smile comes again. “I’ve the newborn. Hell, I even have Nana and Jason.”

“For higher or worse, yeah, you’re caught with these two jokers.”

“I like you, Molly. I like your loved ones too. If I’ve to shut the guide on this, I can open a brand new one with you.”

“Saul—”

“It’s okay.” He leans throughout and kisses me. “Let’s go dwelling.”

We drive away, and I don’t really feel proper. He can act courageous, faux like he’s transferring on, however I do know that’s all for present. He doesn’t need me to know the way a lot he’s in ache proper now.

However he stepped up once I wanted him. He retains on stepping up and retains on taking over extra. And I’ll do the identical for him, even when I don’t know the way but.

Chapter 31

Saul

It looks like a bit of my physique was ripped off by a woodchipper. Which is the one factor I’ve ever used a woodchipper for: destroying human limbs.

I knew Renzo can be indignant. I understood he’d really feel like I betrayed him. Once I went to the home, I absolutely anticipated him to shout at me, and afterward, I assumed we’d work it out. Possibly that half wouldn’t be fairly, perhaps I’d take some form of punishment inside the Famiglia to paper over my disobedience, however I by no means as soon as imagined he’d solid me apart like that.

As if I hadn’t given all the things to my household already.

I attempt to not dwell. Molly helps with that. I throw myself into her and obsess over her consolation. I in all probability annoy the hell out of her with how a lot I’m speaking concerning the coming child, going over her delivery plan, studying parenting books, principally doing something to make me really feel regular once more as an alternative of like an open wound.

None of it helps. I’m festering in my very own distress.

A couple of days after my life modified, Gian reveals up at our door. I hesitate earlier than letting him inside, undecided if I need to cope with this, however he’s alone. And I figured if I’m going to speak to any of my brothers, it’d as nicely be him.

Molly fusses over us, pours drinks, affords meals and tea, earlier than disappearing into one other room. I sit out again with him and stare throughout the small concrete slab to the again fence separating us from the following block over.

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