Lindsey rubbed at her eyes, questioning what to say, how a lot to share. She abruptly realized she favored having him right here, irrespective of why he’d come. The very last thing she wished to do was drive him away with the reality.

However that was precisely what she needed to do.

“Mike, I’m actually not who you assume I’m.”

He shrugged, fully unfazed. “Should you really consider I haven’t figured that out by now, it’s essential to not price my deductive reasoning powers too extremely.”

“No, I imply I’m not the great, small-town trainer you had been speaking about final night time.”

“Did I say that? I should have been stoned.”

She snorted amusing, questioning how he may make her giggle when the subject of dialog was so necessary to her.

“To inform you the reality, Lindsey, I actually don’t care about that proper now.”

“What? What about what you mentioned…”

“I used to be simply making an attempt to justify how I used to be feeling about you.”

He had emotions? Oh boy.

“The reality is, I take into consideration you on a regular basis. I need to be with you on a regular basis. Mrs. Franklin introduced me that e-book, and I used it as an excuse to indicate up at your door at ten o’clock on a Saturday night time.” He smiled. “It in all probability may have waited, however one thing about you, and the Kama Sutra, made me get in my automotive and slam the pedal down.”

“You don’t perceive. This e-book was a present from Callie. She mentioned I wanted to learn to….”

He raised a forehead, ready for her to proceed, clearly mentally filling within the clean. When she didn’t communicate, he prompted her. “Find out how to?”

“Be intimate,” she admitted, her voice little greater than a whisper.

He didn’t tease her, didn’t make assumptions that she mechanically meant bodily intimacy. As a result of the Kama Sutra was about much more than that. It was a little bit dated, a little bit sexist, however your entire piece had many legitimate issues to say about loving, sensual relationships, and never all of it was about intercourse.

“You could have hassle being intimate with folks?”

She swallowed exhausting, looking for the braveness to confess to him what she had admitted to so few folks in her life. “I’ve hassle permitting myself to be intimate with folks. I don’t invite them in.”

“I see,” he replied, coming ever nearer. After which nearer nonetheless. Till his sneakers practically touched the information of her naked toes. “The factor is, Lindsey, I believe you need to invite me in.”

She didn’t have the braveness to answer that.

His lengthy, sturdy leg brushed in opposition to hers, which was lined solely by the silky gown. Beneath it, she wore a brief, flirty nightgown that hardly skimmed the tops of her thighs, and an extended size of leg was revealed by the hole within the gown. The comb of his pants on her naked limbs was sufficient to make her weak and breathless, a little bit light-headed.

“At all times in management,” he murmured, his tone even, soothing. “At all times certain of what you need and what you’re doing…is that it?”

“That’s a few of it,” she admitted, slowly nodding. She couldn’t perceive why her head felt stuffed with cotton. Why was a response so exhausting to understand? She might have been confused about what to say, however she was by no means confused about what she felt: want.

“I suppose I ought to ask why. Perhaps ask if that’s what the field is about—you at all times being in management and by no means having to let anybody get shut sufficient to present you what you want,” he mentioned, lifting a hand and rubbing the again of it alongside the V-neck of her gown. His knuckles brushed frivolously throughout her pores and skin, a contact as fleeting because it was evocative. Her nerve endings sang, each inch of her in tune to him.

Lindsey swallowed, feeling the joy within the air, seeing it in his eyes, listening to it in his voice. She had little question he’d learn that e-book earlier than bringing it again, was sure he’d envisioned doing a few of these issues—or all of these issues—together with her. The strain between them had been simple and sizzling from the second they’d met on the ferry, they usually’d been shoving it away for days, with excuses and justifications.

That was all about to finish, although.

By some means, all the explanations she’d offered, all the justifications, the pithy rationale for steering away from him, fell away. They didn’t matter anymore. As a result of, someplace alongside the best way, whereas they’d danced this dance of yes-and-no, maybe-and-never, I-want-you-and-I-can’t-have-you, she’d stopped eager to avoid him. Stopped saying no, I can’t have you ever, and by no means. A minimum of in her thoughts.

Lindsey was a scientist, a psychologist. She understood why folks did the issues they did. She hadn’t simply been avoiding any involvement with Mike, or anybody else she met, throughout this “down” interval in her life. She’d executed the very same factor through the “up” intervals of her life, too. Even when issues had been good, when her job had been rolling alongside and he or she’d had nice cash, a pleasant dwelling, a promising future, she nonetheless hadn’t allowed herself to essentially let down her guard with any man. Ever.

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