243 I forgive you

When Zhou han got here again, it was already darkish exterior. When he opened the door and entered, the home was darkish. It was grey, and there was solely a faint mild coming from the lounge’s balcony.

He positioned the important thing on the cupboard on the entrance and pressed the sunshine swap.

“Pa! Clang clang” The whole room was lit up.

He noticed Lin Li sitting alone on the couch in the lounge, identical to when he had despatched her up. Even her posture had not modified.

She took out her slippers from the shoe cupboard and turned into them. Then, she took off her swimsuit jacket and casually put the garments on the again of the couch. When she handed Lin Li, she didn’t say something and instantly circled to enter the kitchen.

He opened the fridge and noticed that there have been not many components, only some eggs and a plate of chilly leftovers.

Zhou han rolled up the sleeves of his shirt and took out the eggs and leftovers from the fridge. He was ready to make do with the egg and make some rice for dinner.

After the rice was carried out, Zhou han heated up two glasses of milk. When every part was prepared, he turned again to have a look at the lounge and noticed that Lin Li was nonetheless the identical as earlier than.

Sighing softly, she positioned the nice and cozy milk on the desk and turned to stroll in direction of the lounge.

He didn’t say a phrase, however reached out and pulled her hand, main her on to the eating room.

Lin Li appeared to have recovered from her shock. She wished to withdraw her hand, however he held it tightly.

Zhou han pulled a chair over for her to sit down down and positioned the fried rice and scorching milk in entrance of her.

Solely then did Lin Li discover that he had mentioned he was going to select up the kid, however he didn’t appear to have introduced the kid again. She checked out him and requested, ” “The place’s Xiao bin?”

Zhou han glanced at her and sat down reverse her. you’re solely fascinated with the kid now. His tone was neither mild nor heavy, nevertheless it carried a touch of sarcasm.

Lin Li didn’t care. She was extra involved about the place Xiao bin was. “Didn’t you go to select up the kid? Why didn’t I obtain it?”

Zhou han didn’t take a look at her. He took the milk and took a sip earlier than saying, ” “I’m sending him to the courtyard,”

Lin Li wished to ask why, however earlier than she might ask, Zhou han continued, ” “You’re not in the suitable situation to care for him.”

Lin Li was shocked. She understood what he meant and lowered her head to eat. Zhou Han’s cooking abilities weren’t dangerous, however she actually didn’t have a lot of an urge for food.

He put down the spoon in his hand and took a sip of the milk.

Zhou han ate a mouthful of rice and regarded up at her, asking, ” “To not your liking?”

Lin Li shook her head and remained silent. The spoon in her hand stirred the fried rice on the plate. It was clearly very aromatic, nevertheless it didn’t elevate her urge for food in any respect.

Zhou han didn’t say the rest and simply lowered his head to eat his meals. After this meal, the environment was so quiet that solely the sound of tableware touching could possibly be heard.

After dinner, Zhou han went straight into the school room. He didn’t ask or point out something about Chengxiang.

Lin Li didn’t have the guts to guess his ideas. Her complete being was in a multitude, and her coronary heart was so vexed that she couldn’t determine a single factor.

Standing on the balcony of the lounge, the chilly wind of the winter evening was bone-chilling, however regardless of how chilly it was, it couldn’t wake her up from her messy ideas. She was nonetheless frightened about Chengxiang, and couldn’t cease worrying about him. She didn’t know if he would select the surgical procedure. If he didn’t …

In any case, they’d been in love for thus a few years. Though he hated her, if he was paying the worth for what he had carried out previously, the worth was too huge!

Lin Li couldn’t eliminate the frustration in her coronary heart. She took out her telephone and referred to as Anran.

Anran was listening to prenatal schooling Music when she obtained Lin Li’s name. After the marriage, su Yicheng took Anran out for a honeymoon for just a few days, and the 2 of them hadn’t seen one another because the marriage ceremony.

Right now, Anran was very glad to obtain Lin Li’s name. She mentioned, ” Hi there, Lin Li. I used to be nearly to name you. When are we popping out to sit down? ”

“An Zi, discuss to me for some time.” In comparison with an ran’s pleasure, Lin Li’s melancholy and melancholy appeared just a little low. Her voice was darkish and her tone was just a little heavy.

In any case, they’d been sisters for a few years, and the 2 of them knew one another’s personalities. Anran might inform from their tone that day, so she requested, ” “What’s incorrect? Are you in a foul temper?”

Lin Li took just a few steps again and leaned in opposition to the floor-to-ceiling window. She closed her eyes and recalled the look on Cheng Xiang’s face when she noticed him within the hospital this afternoon. She recalled his expression when he mentioned that he would moderately die than lose a leg. She additionally recalled the enjoyment and ache they’d felt after they have been collectively. Her coronary heart twisted in ache, and she or he couldn’t describe the sensation.

After ready for some time, Lin Li nonetheless didn’t reply. Anran was just a little frightened. She understood Lin Li. Lin Li was normally carefree, however that was solely as a result of she didn’t have an issue in her coronary heart. As soon as one thing occurred in her coronary heart, she would develop into notably silent. The extra silent she was, the extra severe the matter was. Nonetheless, ever because the marriage ceremony, Lin Li’s persona had modified so much. Nonetheless, it wasn’t that she was carefree, however that she was even quieter than earlier than when she encountered bother.

“Lin Li, say one thing. What occurred?” On the opposite finish of the telephone, Anran grew to become just a little anxious and frightened due to her silence.

As Lin Li thought of it, her nostril grew to become bitter, and her eyes grew to become pink and scorching. She raised her head to power again the tears in her eyes and bit her lip. After some time, she mentioned, ” “Chengxiang is sick.”

Upon listening to this, Anran fell silent on the opposite finish of the telephone. The environment out of the blue grew to become lifeless silent, so quiet that solely the sound of the chilly wind blowing previous Lin Li’s ears could possibly be heard.

After an unknown period of time, Anran slowly opened her mouth on the opposite finish of the telephone. Lin Li, you continue to can’t overlook him? ” His voice was low and deep, and it was laborious to inform what feelings he was feeling.

Lin Li couldn’t reply. She solely felt her coronary heart clench in ache. As for this sense, whether or not it was as a result of she couldn’t let it go or one thing else, she herself was just a little obscure and unsure.

When she didn’t hear her reply, Anran had a obscure reply in her coronary heart. She sighed softly and mentioned with a bitter smile, ” “Lin Li, you’re so ineffective!” She felt aggrieved for Lin Li and felt that it wasn’t value it, particularly when she understood that Chengxiang’s kindness to Lin Li for the previous ten years was solely as a result of he handled Lin Li instead. She felt much more sorrowful and heartbroken for Lin Li’s ten years of affection.

Nonetheless, from one other perspective, she might perceive and perceive the helplessness in Lin Li’s coronary heart. She had spent six years to overlook the 4 years she had spent with mo Fei. It was certainly too far-fetched to ask Lin Li to overlook the ten years of emotions she had for her in simply six months.

“An Zi, my coronary heart is in a multitude proper now.” She wasn’t even positive if she nonetheless couldn’t let go of her earlier love for Chengxiang, or if it was simply sympathy and emotions between pals and classmates. She would really feel dangerous for Chengxiang when she noticed his present look, however she would additionally consider what Zhou han had mentioned to her that day now and again. He mentioned that she wasn’t a substitute and that he didn’t dare to like her earlier than as a result of he was afraid of getting damage. However as a result of it was her, he wished to attempt once more.

Lin Li, ask your coronary heart. In the event you nonetheless can’t let him go, then return. If returning to Chengxiang’s facet might make her glad once more and switch her again into the Lin Li of the previous, then as a buddy, she would help her resolution. After all, the premise was that this time, Chengxiang should be honest!

Lin Li was barely shocked. She stammered, ” you imply to return to Chengxiang’s facet? ” As she spoke, Zhou Han’s chilly face out of the blue appeared in her thoughts. There wasn’t a lot expression on his face, however his eyes have been honest.

“You need to?” On the opposite finish of the telephone, Anran requested in return. It wasn’t that she wished to return, however whether or not she actually wished to return or not. This was the important thing!

Lin Li was shocked and requested herself in her coronary heart. Did she actually need to begin over with Chengxiang? might they nonetheless begin over?

On the opposite finish of the telephone, Lin Li didn’t communicate for a very long time. On the opposite finish of the telephone, Anran sighed softly and mentioned, ” Lin Li, think twice. Don’t begin over due to sympathy.

If it was simply due to sympathy or a second of heartache, then even when they went again, it could not be the emotions from the start, they usually must undergo for others.

After a protracted silence, Lin Li slowly opened her mouth and mentioned, ” “You relaxation, I’ll grasp up first.”

On the opposite finish of the telephone, Anran didn’t say something extra, as a result of she knew that when it got here to issues of the guts, solely she might understand how a lot of it was true. Earlier than she hung up the telephone, she mentioned, ” Lin Li, don’t let your self undergo due to a second of insufferable ache. Sympathy is the best cruelty to others.

After hanging up the telephone, Lin Li continued to face on the balcony for a very long time. When the chilly wind of the winter evening blew on her, she trembled just a little. Then, she lifted her overly heavy footsteps and circled. Nonetheless, Zhou han was already standing on the door of the balcony behind her. His deep eyes have been watching her, and there have been feelings that Lin Li couldn’t perceive.

After him for some time, Lin Li retracted her gaze. She didn’t dare to look him within the eye. She appeared to have an inexplicable responsible conscience. She didn’t say something and turned sideways to stroll previous him. Nonetheless, when she handed by him, he reached out and grabbed her hand. She stopped in her tracks and bit her lips tightly. She felt an inexplicable grievance in her coronary heart. She didn’t know the place this emotion out of the blue got here from. It was so uncomfortable that her nostril felt bitter and her eyes felt scorching. It was as if the tears in her eyes have been about to fall. The ache was past phrases.

Zhou han sighed softly and reached out to tug her into his arms. He hugged her physique that was just a little chilly from the chilly wind. His embrace grew to become tighter, as if he wished to switch all his physique temperature and warmth to her and let her really feel heat once more.

When her physique touched his physique temperature, the grievances and discomfort in Lin Li’s coronary heart might not be suppressed. She leaned on his shoulder and tears gushed out. Her fingers subconsciously patted his again. She didn’t know if she wished to push him away or pull him in, or if she simply wished to seek out an outlet to vent the discomfort and frustration in her coronary heart.

Zhou han allowed her to be afraid of being hit. He solely pulled again his hand and closed the balcony door that was initially vast open. Then, he hugged her and stroked her brief hair along with his giant palm. That motion was stuffed with countless consolation.

Lin Li fell asleep crying. When she awoke, it was already the subsequent morning. She was mendacity on the massive mattress in Zhou Han’s room. She regarded up on the crystal chandelier on the ceiling that wasn’t too unfamiliar to her. Prior to now, she had additionally woken up right here many instances within the morning and hadn’t been right here for some time. In comparison with the sunshine in her room, it appeared to have an inexplicable sense of familiarity.

She turned her head and noticed that Zhou han was not in mattress. Nonetheless, the mattress underneath the blanket was nonetheless heat, as if indicating that the proprietor of this room had simply woken up.

Identical to how she had woken up on this room many instances earlier than, Lin Li lay there and stared on the crystal chandelier for a very long time earlier than she turned over and obtained up from the mattress. The comfortable silk quilt slid down from her physique. When she regarded down, she realized that she was carrying the pajamas she was used to carrying. Zhou han will need to have modified it for her final evening. She lifted the quilt and was about to get off the bed when the door of the room opened presently. Zhou han got here in with the garments he took from the subsequent room. Seeing that she had already woken up, he went ahead handy her the garments in his fingers. He solely mentioned indifferently, ” change your garments and are available out for breakfast.

Lin Li checked out him and solely nodded her head barely, not saying a phrase.

When Lin Li got here out after washing up, Zhou han was already sitting in his seat and consuming breakfast. He was nonetheless holding this morning’s newspaper in his hand, studying it whereas ingesting a mouthful of milk. He was carrying the house garments that he normally wore at house, as if he didn’t plan to exit for the entire day.

Lin Li sat down reverse him and took a sip of milk to moisten her throat. Wanting on the meals on the plate, she didn’t have a lot urge for food. It was as if she had out of the blue returned to some months in the past, when she felt just a little disgusted with meals.

However regardless that she didn’t have a lot of an urge for food, Lin Li nonetheless took a chew. The environment between the 2 was just a little unusual, so Lin Li tried to discover a subject to speak about. “Aren’t you going to the workplace at this time?”

Listening to this, Zhou han regarded up at her and nodded barely, ” “Sure.”

His reply was too chilly, and for a second, Lin Li didn’t know what to say. She took the knife and fork in her hand and lower the porcelain plate. She lower the marginally burnt ham into small items, however she didn’t eat it. She thought of whether or not she ought to go to the hospital to verify on Chengxiang’s situation later. If he actually didn’t need to have the operation, what ought to she do?

He put down the newspaper in his hand and stared on the dazed particular person reverse him. He opened his mouth and requested, ” “It’s to not my style.” What was imagined to be a questioning tone become a press release.

Lin Li got here again to her senses. She checked out Zhou han after which on the meals on the plate. She shook her head just a little awkwardly and picked up a fork to place a bit of ham into her mouth.

Zhou han didn’t say something extra. He took the entire wheat toast, put it in his mouth, took a chew, and drank it with milk.

Lin Li checked out him, considerably puzzled and much more puzzled. Since getting back from the hospital yesterday, she had been ready for him to ask her one thing, however he didn’t say a phrase. His complete particular person gave the impression to be quieter than typical. Relating to the hospital’s issues relating to Chengxiang, he didn’t ask or say a single phrase.

After him for a very long time, Lin Li couldn’t assist however ask instantly, ” you, why did you comply with me to the hospital yesterday? ”

Zhou Han’s hand that was holding the knife and fork out of the blue stopped. His gaze slowly landed on her face. He put down the knife and fork in his hand and slowly mentioned, ” “I’ve been ready for a solution from you since that day.” His voice was flat and with none fluctuations, making it inconceivable to listen to any feelings.

Lin Li regarded away and didn’t dare to look him within the eye. She understood that the ‘that day’ he was speaking about was the day of Anran’s marriage ceremony. The reply was her reply to his drunk confession that day.

Her hand that was holding the fork and knife unconsciously tightened. She couldn’t reply earlier than as a result of she was afraid and unsure. Now that she was requested once more, she nonetheless didn’t know the reply. Nonetheless, this time it wasn’t as a result of she was afraid, however as a result of she was working away.

She reached out for the milk and drank it to cowl up her embarrassment.

Zhou han didn’t press her. He simply lowered his head and continued consuming. It wasn’t that he was affected person, he simply didn’t need to power her an excessive amount of presently.

Yesterday, he felt that one thing was incorrect together with her temper, so he was frightened and adopted her to the hospital. It was solely after he adopted her to the hospital that he discovered about Chengxiang.

He requested himself what he would do if he was the present Lin Li. In actuality, they’d by no means been so comparable. Again then, he had been pacing forwards and backwards within the hospital backyard, hesitating whether or not he ought to go as much as see Ling LAN. In actuality, the present Lin Li was the identical because the Lin Li of the previous.

He knew that no matter whether or not she nonetheless had emotions for Chengxiang, if he have been to ask her to disregard Chengxiang’s life and situation, it could undoubtedly push her away from him and in direction of Chengxiang.

After ingesting that day, he was very clear about what he wished. Since he had already made a transparent objective, he wasn’t somebody who would simply let go. His benefit over Chengxiang was that he had by no means damage Lin Li, and since the 2 of them had comparable experiences, he knew what Lin Li wished in her coronary heart. Nonetheless, when in comparison with Chengxiang, he couldn’t evaluate to the 10-year relationship between Chengxiang and her.

So presently, he wouldn’t power her to decide or give a solution, as a result of the present setting was utterly unfair to him. He didn’t need to lose unjustly, nor did he need her to make a incorrect resolution due to soft-hearted sympathy. Probably the most he might do now was to remain by her facet.

Cheng Xiang hadn’t completed his breakfast but, and his mom referred to as from the hospital, saying that Cheng Xiang hadn’t spoken a phrase since she left yesterday. He hadn’t even eaten something since yesterday afternoon. This morning, when the nurse took his temperature, she mentioned that he had a fever once more. She mentioned that if his temperature didn’t go down, it could solely worsen his situation. She and Cheng Xiang’s father couldn’t do something about it, they usually solely hoped that he would take heed to her, which was why they referred to as him once more.

After hanging up the telephone, Lin Li subconsciously regarded up at Zhou han and noticed that he was additionally her. Earlier than she might communicate, he had already mentioned, ” “I’ll ship you there.”

Feeling that it was just a little inappropriate, Lin Li refused, ” “No want, I’ll go on my own.”

“I’ll ship you.” Zhou han insisted. His expression was as if he needed to agree even when he didn’t need to.

Lin Li didn’t say something extra and simply nodded. She obtained up, went to the room, took her bag, and got here out.

After they arrived on the hospital, Cheng Xiang’s mother and father have been already pacing across the door due to Cheng Xiang’s sudden excessive fever. Seeing Lin Li come over, mom Cheng was nearly on the verge of tears. She pulled Lin Li and begged her to influence Cheng Xiang.

Lin Li was just a little touched. She was touched that Cheng Zheng’s mom, who was once such a proud particular person, was now begging her a lot, all for the sake of loving her son.

Pushing the door open, he noticed Chengxiang sitting on the mattress with an expressionless face. His posture was not a lot totally different from yesterday. The one distinction was that yesterday, he had turned his head to look out the window. At present, his eyes have been straight and unfocused as they fell on the tv reverse him.

He gave the impression to be much more Haggard than yesterday, and his face was even paler and cold.

Lin Li reached out and knocked on the door. Cheng Xiang, who was inside, appeared to have misplaced his soul. He didn’t flip his head and maintained his posture, watching her with out transferring.

Lin Li sighed softly and reached out to shut the door. She walked over to him and stood straight on the head of the mattress, blocking his view.

After some time, as if he felt his imaginative and prescient being blocked by somebody, Chengxiang slowly got here again to his senses. His dazed eyes slowly gathered collectively, and he checked out Lin Li with some shock and uncertainty. He muttered in a really comfortable voice, ” Lin Li …

Lin Li regarded straight at him and requested softly, ” “What else do you need to torture your self to?” Though his tone was very mild and calm, the ache in his coronary heart was past his phrases.

Chengxiang smiled, the corners of his mouth pulled up as if he didn’t hear what she mentioned. He solely muttered to himself,”I assumed I’d by no means see you once more …”

“I’m pondering now, why did I fall in love with such a egocentric man such as you?” Lin Li was just a little indignant. She was indignant that he was such an irresponsible particular person. He was immersed in his personal life and didn’t contemplate different folks’s emotions in any respect. He was once, so he handled her as an alternative to Xiaoxiao. He was nonetheless the identical now, so he ignored different folks’s worries and fears.

This time, when Chengxiang heard it, he was shocked for a second. The corners of his mouth pulled up right into a bitter smile that carried a touch of self-mockery and mock.

you’ll solely know how you can cherish one thing after you’ve misplaced it. Again then, you didn’t work as laborious as she did, so you can solely watch as Xiaoxiao left with another person. Then, you lived within the reminiscence of her that by no means stopped, and I grew to become a substitute so that you can miss her.

Chengxiang turned his head. don’t say anymore … he refused to take heed to these bare accusations. They might solely make him really feel much more remorseful and remorseful.

Ignoring his phrases, Lin Li continued, ” I’m the second Xiaoxiao. You’re repeating what occurred to Xiaoxiao previously to me. Solely once you’ve actually misplaced you’ll you remorse not cherishing it again then. The particular person you like won’t ever be the one who stays by your facet. It was me previously, however who would be the subsequent one? ”

don’t say anymore … Chengxiang painfully raised his head and closed his eyes. The hand on the quilt was tightly clenched.

“I don’t know who I’ll be subsequent. I solely know that due to you, your mother and father are those who’re damage probably the most. Have you learnt that your mom even knelt down and begged me to influence you due to you? have you learnt that your father has aged by almost ten years due to you? Are you attempting to power them to their deaths?”

hehe … Chengxiang leaned again along with his head raised, his eyes closed as he laughed, ” hehe … Hehe … nevertheless, he laughed and laughed, after which cried. That smile was so bitter that it made one’s coronary heart ache.

Lin Li couldn’t bear to see him like this, so she turned her head away from him. She bit her lip to cease her tears from falling.

you’re proper. I’m too egocentric. I solely take into consideration myself. I’m not an excellent son, not an excellent boyfriend, and I’m not even an excellent father …

Lin Li’s complete physique trembled, and her tone was just a little chilly as she mentioned, ” “Sufficient, cease!”

Chengxiang glanced over, the bitterness in his mouth as he mentioned in a low voice,”I’m sorry,” she mentioned.

Lin Li felt horrible and compelled herself not to consider the previous. Some issues could possibly be let go, however some wounds would nonetheless damage.

Looking of the window, Chengxiang mentioned in a self-deprecating method,”Reside? is there any that means for somebody like me to dwell?”

Lin Li bit her lip, forcing again the sourness on the tip of her nostril. She then turned her head to look into Chengxiang’s eyes and requested, ” “Chengxiang, you need me to forgive you, proper?”

He turned his head and stared straight at her. He nodded and mentioned anxiously, ” “You’re prepared to forgive me?” His expression was considered one of disbelief and shock.

Lin Li checked out him and considered Cheng Zheng’s mother and father begging her on the door. She considered the tears in her mom’s eyes and nodded closely.”Sure, so long as you conform to the surgical procedure and cooperate with the therapy, I’ll forgive you!”

Listening to this, Chengxiang didn’t even give it some thought. He instantly nodded and agreed. okay, so long as you’ll be able to forgive me. He didn’t dare to count on her to proceed to like him. He solely hoped that she would forgive him.

Lin Li nodded, and her hand that was initially holding her bag relaxed at this second. Let’s depart it at that. If her phrase of forgiveness might save his life, then forgive him.

“I’ll exit and name the physician.” He circled and walked in direction of the door.

“Lin Li.” Behind him, Chengxiang sat up straight in pleasure and was considerably anxious to get away from bed.

Lin Li circled and noticed that his hand, which was nonetheless on the drip, was transferring round, inflicting the blood to circulation again. She rapidly went as much as cease him and mentioned, ” “What are you doing? lie down.”

Chengxiang didn’t care about the rest and simply stared at her, saying,”Actually? are you actually prepared to forgive me?” He wished to listen to it from her personally. She needed to say that she was prepared.

Lin Li was just a little indignant, however she nonetheless helped him lie down once more and nodded. actually.

After getting an affirmative reply, Chengxiang smiled. He raised his head and coated his eyes along with his hand. thanks!

Lin Li checked out him and didn’t miss the tears that have been flowing down his face underneath his arm. She additionally turned her again to him, biting her lip and protecting her mouth to keep away from him. Her tears blurred her eyes, blurring her imaginative and prescient.

After standing within the room for some time and calming her feelings, Lin Li opened the door and went out. Nonetheless, her pink eyes couldn’t cover the truth that she had cried.

Cheng Zheng’s mother and father have been standing exterior the door, and naturally, Zhou han, who was standing along with his again to them, circled on the identical time after they heard the door open.

Seeing her come out, Cheng Zheng’s mom pushed Cheng Zheng’s father away and grabbed Lin Li’s hand, asking anxiously, ” “How was it? how was it? did Chengxiang agree? did he agree?”

Cheng Zheng’s father was additionally ready anxiously behind his mom, and the way in which he checked out Lin Li revealed his present feelings.

Lin Li tried her finest to power a smile and held mom Cheng’s hand. She nodded and mentioned, ” “Chengxiang has agreed to the surgical procedure.”

Upon listening to this, Mrs. Cheng gave the impression to be shocked for some time, then she cried. She cried as a result of she was so glad. She grabbed Lin Li’s hand and couldn’t say a phrase. Behind her, Mr. Cheng was additionally excited, and his fingers holding Mrs. Cheng’s fingers couldn’t assist trembling.

Lin Li circled and met Zhou Han’s eyes. He was simply her with out a lot expression on his face.