I didn’t know if that was Delia’s intention, however I had a sense she didn’t do or say something with out cause.

With the digital camera clutched in my grasp, I headed out of her workplace with my shoulders again, head up, and willpower in my steps. It was time for me to step as much as the plate. I would swing and miss, or I would hit it out of the park.

However I’d by no means know till I attempted.

It was rally cap time.

EPILOGUE

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THREE YEARS LATER

Hanging up the final photograph to dry, I stepped again and gazed on the photographs as they materialized on the movie. The day Delia gave me her outdated digital camera, a ardour unfurled inside me. Neither of us had recognized the importance of that second at the moment, but it surely was one I’d be eternally grateful for.

I’d upgraded to a DSLR digital camera that I used for many issues, however there was one thing therapeutic and natural about growing movie that I loved. I pulled out that outdated digital camera—now with a brand new sunflower strap—a minimum of as soon as per week and took inventory of the issues round me.

Delia had been proper about how a lot I loved seeing issues from a unique perspective. It opened my eyes to a complete new world, the place I noticed all the body and never simply the performs in entrance of me.

Baseball and images metaphor for the win.

Stepping out of the darkroom—a transformed closet that Aunt Lola and Calliope had made for me—I walked to the sliding door. The climate right here was at all times excellent, and I took a deep breath of the salty air because it blew in off the coast. Wind chimes jingled within the background, and I rested again within the hammock swing to stare on the sky. Life was so peaceable right here.

I hadn’t meant to remain in Greece this lengthy, however every time I considered returning to Ohio, I’d get a pit within the backside of my abdomen and discover some excuse to remain.

The primary yr was to complete remedy and discover the world round me, which my mother and father had accepted with out an excessive amount of fuss. I went with Emory to Paris and met essentially the most fascinating people. We danced, laughed, and kissed just a few boys from Paris to Madrid, and I’d by no means felt so carefree.

There was a bit of well being scare halfway by that yr, and my mother and father nearly demanded I return house, however Aunt Lola had calmed them down, and I confirmed myself I could possibly be sick with out falling again into my “helpless” sample.

That was a type of issues I’d realized in remedy, too. Together with my gratitude shackles, I believed that individuals solely needed to be round me once they might deal with me. This led to me giving management of my life and letting everybody else make the choices for me, at all times rescuing me.

I’d come to simply accept it was a principal part of why I’d dated Brandon. Not solely had my mother adored him, however he was a pure chief. He changed my mother and father by making selections for me, permitting me by no means to assume for myself or be accountable. I noticed how simply I could possibly be manipulated if I continued on that path, main me to darker and extra harmful territory. I used to be grateful that despite the fact that Brandon wasn’t the man for me, he’d been man. Slightly boring, maybe, however he hadn’t been abusive or controlling. And I’d forgiven him for the entire cake topper factor.

There was a second in yr two after I practically caved. Hawk was injured, ending his baseball profession, and I ached to console him, to verify he was okay. However my coronary heart didn’t really feel sturdy sufficient but, so I despatched him care packages and received updates from Bryce after I might. We have been nonetheless radio silent, not even a textual content in two years, however I hoped he knew I cared.

After his restoration, Dad supplied him a training job with the Yellowjackets, and he’d taken it, placing him and Bryce again on the identical staff once more. I used to be blissful for him, even when it nonetheless damage to consider the possibility we by no means received.

A butterfly landed on my knee, tickling the pores and skin and distracting me from reminiscence street. Smiling, I reached for my telephone to snap it. Importing it to my social media account, I scrolled by all the photographs I’d added through the years, touchdown on an image of a cute man serving to a bit of woman kick a ball—the explanation I’d stayed the following yr.

I’d been supplied a place taking footage for the native sports activities groups, and I hadn’t needed to go away but. I loved discovering new methods to make use of a talent I used to be enthusiastic about. There would possibly’ve additionally been the new coach I used to be relationship that influenced my resolution. It didn’t final lengthy, but it surely was good thus far somebody that wasn’t Brandon. And whereas the intercourse had been good, it was nowhere close to my time with Hawk, and I puzzled if I’d been reverse cursed—by no means to expertise an orgasm not by my very own arms once more.

I’d considered returning after my contract ended and my relationship fluttered out, however I heard by the gossip grapevine that Hawk was seeing somebody, and the ache that lanced my coronary heart was so intense that I knew I nonetheless couldn’t face him. Once more, I used to be glad he was transferring ahead in his life, but it surely nonetheless damage to know I wouldn’t be in it.

The patio door opened, and I lazily turned my head towards the sound. Emory bounded over, her gentle brown hair flying round her. She had on one of many shirts I’d made her that mentioned, “Sunshine blended with a bit of hurricane.” Nothing had ever appeared extra excellent than that assertion. That had been one other remedy challenge I’d uncovered. Delia had inspired me to broaden my pins into shirts, giving me one thing to give attention to and discovering humorous methods to say the issues I used to be typically too bashful to utter.

Emory smiled when she noticed me within the hammock and raced over to hitch me, jostling me as she made herself comfy.

“Lake, my stunning pal, how are you at present?” Emory beamed, crossing one lengthy leg over the opposite, her tan pores and skin on show. She was effortlessly stunning, a real free spirit, and a lover of something enjoyable.

“I’m good. Simply completed growing that final roll of movie.”

“Oh, I can’t wait to see your latest masterpieces. Are you placing any of them up within the gallery?”

On the finish of final yr, I submitted a photograph to a contest per Emory’s insistence and was utterly stunned after I received. A gallery proprietor had seen my picture and contacted me, excited about shopping for prints to showcase. It felt bizarre to promote my images, although. They have been part of me, and it was odd to assume they’d be on the market on this planet on different folks’s partitions.

Emory mentioned I had a case of imposter syndrome and wanted to embrace my expertise. So I sucked it up and submitted just a few, utterly flabbergasted once they bought inside per week. The proprietor informed me to ship no matter I had every time, and they’d showcase them. It was good, however I loved doing sports activities images essentially the most.

It had taken me some time to simply accept it, however as soon as I did, I knew it was how I might relate to my household and do one thing I liked. I wasn’t certain what it could appear to be long-term, however I had religion there was a manner.

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