Episode 22: Nonetheless Crying

My fingertips, uncovered for a very long time within the chilly evening air, tingled. I do know it’s time to cease and go in.

Is Kailos nonetheless in my room? I actually hoped he had gone again by now. In fact, I’ll have to satisfy him once more tomorrow, however not less than I didn’t wish to meet him once more tonight.

What’s Kailos pondering? What are you pondering, telling me such a lie? I can’t consider you’re keen on me.

I used to be not harmless little Chloe, true affection and deception will be distinguished.

Once I considered Kailos, I had a headache. I made a decision to cease fascinated about him, I didn’t wish to damage my emotions after I barely received higher.

Pondering that method, I regarded again and there was Lord France, who adopted me with a relaxed look. Someway, my coronary heart turned heat.

As I entered the room, heat air wrapped round me directly.

“Thanks,” I mentioned, returning his cloak.

Lord France smiled calmly and nodded. He appeared to return to the unique Lord France. Actually, Lord France earlier was somewhat unusual, however I didn’t hate it.

“I’ll go to my room alone.”

“Sure, then have a great evening, Woman Garnet.”

After saying goodbye to Lord France, he walked alone within the hallway. All of the sudden, I seen a big visitor room on the correct facet of the hallway.

Earlier than coming again in time, I used to be with Raymond in that room, and Raymond poured out his overflowing coronary heart to me.

It was additionally a spot the place he promised to discover a solution to preserve me by his facet one way or the other.

Maybe he would nonetheless be staying in that room.

I finished strolling in entrance of the door the place he was staying. I rigorously put my palm over the door.

Once I consider my relationship with Raymond, it hurts endlessly.

He died due to me. He’s the person I killed.

‘Nonetheless, you might be crying for me.’

As a substitute of blaming me even earlier than loss of life, he cared about me. He was essentially the most depressing man on the earth and smiled at my tears.

Now I do know that you simply actually liked me. You didn’t blame me regardless that you have been killed due to me. The person I killed with my very own palms. I laughed bitterly, pondering of him.

“Raymond…”

What ought to have come out a very long time in the past is now flowing out belatedly.

“I’m sorry, actually…… I’m sorry….”

Phrases that won’t be delivered hover within the air and scatter. Will the day come once I inform you this correctly? Maybe, when that point comes, I’ll should pay for my crime.

Raymond, please, on this life, I hope you don’t get entangled with me.

* * *

Even after daybreak, I crouched on the nook of my mattress for fairly a very long time, including to my ideas.

I thought of all of it evening. I can not be with the person who deceived me and took Estelle, even when that man was the one mild that saved me prior to now.

He mentioned he would flip the whole lot again, however it was unimaginable. There was nothing that may very well be reversed on this time with out Estelle.

He was not mild to me, however darkness. Boring darkness that can crush and take away the whole lot.

The thought dominated my thoughts, that I didn’t wish to keep within the room that belongs to him for even a second extra.

So I used to be going to go to Kailos and inform him that I would go away this place. I didn’t know the place to go after I left and what to do straight away, however I didn’t wish to be right here for an additional hour the place that man was.

The second I opened the door, there he stood, Raymond, the person who died due to me prior to now life…….

“I see the Solar of the Empire.”

In contrast to yesterday, once I solely shed tears foolishly, I greeted him with manners. Then instantly, there was a thick hand that raised my bent head.

“…….”

Raymond regarded me within the eyes silently. His eyebrows twitched barely, it was Raymond’s behavior when he didn’t like one thing. His eyes that checked out me have been burning. At first look, I felt like he was obtrusive.

Is he offended? As quickly as I attempted to rigorously pull out my head, I felt a tough hand touching my eyes.

“What’s supplying you with a tough time?”

I didn’t know whether or not the voice that descended low down the quiet hallway was offended or anxious.

“There’s nothing like that,” I slowly made eye contact and answered.

It was a tough voice that I had by no means heard from him prior to now.

In that point, I attempted to seduce Raymond one way or the other solely for Kailos. So I all the time smiled brightly in entrance of him, whispered softly, and served as a stupendous mistress, however not anymore.

Even when this was after I spent the evening with him, I used to be nonetheless solely a lady of a one evening stand. I needed to push him away in order that he wouldn’t get entangled with me anymore.

“Chloe…”

Overlapping the time he had whispered like to me in a voice calling my title, I took a step again and regarded straight at him.

“I’m sorry, Your Majesty. Please return now. This place….isn’t for Your Majesty.”

“I determine the place I can be.”

Raymond took a step nearer to me and gave me a scary look. As I shrank my shoulders together with his momentum, he frowned for a second and added in a calmer voice.

“I informed you, I’ll keep right here till you get higher.”

If others heard it, they’d nonetheless really feel that it was a scary voice, however I do know, that is the candy voice this individual used for a frightened baby.

As immature dad and mom, we have been generally embarrassed as a result of we didn’t know what Estelle wished when she cried. At the moment, Raymond tried to appease Estelle with the identical voice he’s now.

Sadly, Raymond’s makes an attempt resulted in failure each time, however I all the time felt unusual once I noticed Raymond comforting Estelle.

And, even now.

Raymond, who’s me with the identical voice as then and the identical eyes as then, retains making me cry.

“Why?”

Nonetheless, opposite to my thoughts, the one phrases that got here out of my mouth have been to push him away sharply.

“You don’t have to do this. I’m a lady not price it to Your Majesty.”

“…duty, let’s say that.”

It’s one evening. The me I’m now was solely a one-night relationship for him. Not the outdated Chloe who seduced him with all her may for months, however a lady who simply warmed the mattress for the evening.

“Are you chargeable for all the ladies you’ve spent the evening with?”

His eyebrows twitched once more. Was it dangerous? Regardless of how a lot he liked me within the outdated days, it was too impolite to say this to the Emperor of the Empire.

“Then what?”

Raymond appeared offended, I assumed it was higher. I hoped that his liking for me, which was simply sprouting in his coronary heart, could be dampened like this.

“You don’t should take duty for me both. It’s too harsh to place the burden of duty on only one evening’s relationship.”

“Just one evening?”

“Sure, only one evening.”

Even earlier than the reply was over, Raymond held me roughly on the shoulder. Then, he stared at me with purple eyes.

“I….!”

Raymond was about to say one thing, however he grinded his tooth.

“Rattling it……”

He spat out low swear phrases and bit his lips. I wished to cease him as a result of I assumed he was going to bleed, however I didn’t deserve it.

“In case you want my physique…….”

“I’m not a pervert who forcibly holds a sick individual.”

He lower me off with a decided voice.

Because the Emperor of the Empire, he even got here to the Duchy just because I used to be sick. He tells me that he didn’t come to covet my physique, which is only a one-night relationship.

‘Actually, it’s excellent. From one to 10, it’s my style.’

All of the sudden I remembered the phrases he murmured as he checked out me.

For a really very long time, Kailos has groomed me into a lady that fits the style of the emperor. The primary second I met him on the New 12 months’s ball a very long time in the past, possibly since then, Raymond fell in love with me at first sight?

“Your Majesty, could I…….”

It could be presumptuous, however I considered it for a really quick time.

“To me…”

My voice, asking to substantiate his thoughts, trembled softly. He regarded down at me and sighed harshly.

“I can roughly guess what you’re making an attempt to say, however that’s not it.”

“…….”

“I’m not romantic sufficient to fall in love with an odd lady at first sight.”

me, who couldn’t say something, he smiled.

“So don’t be cocky and get higher, Chloe.”

Raymond was a person who expressed his emotions brazenly, so what he mentioned now wouldn’t be a lie. I groaned as a result of he’s simply making an attempt to take duty for me.

I turned somewhat embarrassed, however I attempted onerous to look okay. I assumed I’d be extra embarrassed once I revealed what I used to be ashamed of.

“I gained’t depart till I’m positive you’re alright.”

“I’m already healed. In case you don’t consider me, I’ll name a physician to substantiate it for you.”

Raymond’s eyes curled slowly as he regarded down at me, who spoke confidently. I paused on the sight of the gaze.

“You might be nonetheless crying.”

I’m crying? Embarrassed, I touched my eyes with my palms. However tears didn’t come off.

“At the very least you shouldn’t have cried in entrance of me.”

“I didn’t cry.”

Once I protested as if I used to be wrongly accused, Raymond glanced at me for a second. It was a glance that appeared to penetrate me. I needed to attempt to not keep away from his eyes.