Wet Nights and Automotive Accident

Yi Zhize calmly cleaned up the particles, the silver chain at his ankle rubbing towards the wound continually, sending stabs of ache by means of him that made him drip with chilly sweat. However he held again, making no sound or expression of impatience.

“Ze Ze?” Ou Tingyun stopped in entrance of him, “You… are you damage?”

Yi Zhize completed cleansing up the particles and spoke in a flat tone, “En, it is high-quality.”

Ou Tingyun anxiously stated, “Let me have a look.”

Yi Zhize sat down on the couch and Ou Tingyun examined his wound fastidiously, unable to cease his coronary heart from aching, “I am sorry, I did not maintain you. Ze Ze, it should be very painful, proper? How, how might this occur?”

“After I was pouring the water,” Yi Zhize briefly defined, “I tripped over the silver chain.”

Ou Tingyun frowned intensely, “Let me disinfect it and bandage it for you.”

He took out alcohol, gauze and surgical tweezers from the therapy room and cleaned his affected person’s wound.

In a consultative tone, Yi Zhize stated, “Tingyun, are you able to launch it?”

Ou Tingyun’s actions paused, “What?”

“The chain.”

It took a number of moments earlier than the physician smiled and stated, “In fact, the wound will not even scab over with that factor on.”

Ou Tingyun took a set of keys from his pocket and unlocked the silver chain.

Yi Zhize secretly breathed a sigh of reduction, however his subsequent phrases had been, “Ze Ze, be good, let’s put on it on the opposite facet.”

Ou Tingyun completed sterilising the silver chain and was about to place it on him when Yi Zhize refused, “Tingyun, we’re lovers, I hope you’ll respect me.”

“Do I not respect you?” Ou Tingyun sincerely stated, “Ze Ze, no matter you ask, I’ll do it for you.”

“Launch.”

“Besides this.”

“Give me again my telephone.”

“This may not work both.”

“Let me return to the regulation agency.”

“The regulation agency, they’ve given you an extended go away of absence. What, aren’t you proud of me?”

“So,” Yi Zhize smiled faintly, “Trainer, you are still mendacity to me.”

The phrases someway irritated Ou Tingyun, and his expression all of the sudden clouded over, “I am not.”

“You limit my freedom at each flip and haven’t got an oz. of belief in me in any respect.” Yi Zhize stated, “I am disillusioned.”

Ou Tingyun’s eyes deepened as he mounted the silver chain round his affected person’s ankle, his voice low and melodious between the crunching of metallic: “You misunderstand me, Ze Ze.”

“It is not that I do not belief you, I am simply… afraid.” Ou Tingyun smiled at him, “I am afraid you may go away me.”

Ou Tingyun sat alongside him, he took Yi Zhize’s hand in his palm and whispered, “Throughout this time, I had a psychological prognosis carried out for myself. My sickness is paranoid character dysfunction.”

“This dysfunction takes a very long time to type and progress. Feelings manifest as stubbornness, hypersensitivity, over-vigilance, narrow-mindedness, jealousy, belligerence, impulsiveness, and aggression.”

“I have been suppressing myself, Ze Ze.”

“The considered you leaving me makes me afraid I will not be capable to management it.”

“With this chain, I am kind of comfortable.”

“So long as you are right here, it is high-quality.” The psychiatrist smiled at his former affected person and stated, “So long as you might be there, you’ll be able to remedy me of all my persistent issues.”

Ou Tingyun kissed the again of his hand, and Yi Zhize pulled it away, “Unbelievable.”

“Ze Ze, are you blaming me?” Ou Tingyun stated innocently, “Have I allow you to down?”

A cussed emotion rose in Yi Zhize’s coronary heart and he stated, “Mmm.”

“I am sorry…. I am sorry…” Ou Tingyun pleaded, “What do I’ve to do so that you can forgive me? Possibly…”

The physician paused for a second, his voice hoarse, “You have by no means forgiven me, have you ever?”

Yi Zhize was silent, his coronary heart throbbing with a boring ache.

“I do know…” Ou Tingyun laughed softly, “I do know.”

He fetched his scalpel and slashed the identical wound in the identical spot on his personal ankle.

Even deeper, much more grotesque.

Blood immediately stained his garments.

Yi Zhize snatched the scalpel and cursed in a low voice, “Loopy!”

As if he couldn’t really feel the ache in any respect, Ou Tingyun stated, “Ze Ze, do you keep in mind after we first met? At the moment, somebody was in search of you and I helped you cease them. The blade lower by means of my palm, however I did not really feel any ache. What I used to be pondering at the moment was, so long as you were not damage, I used to be high-quality. Now, I really feel the identical lack of ache, however that is as a result of…”

“That is as a result of,” the underside of Ou Tingyun’s eyes had been filled with sorrow, “you as soon as instructed me that excessive unhappiness has no emotion, and I appear to know that now.”

Ou Tingyun all of the sudden stated, “Ze Ze, why do not you kill me?” He checked out his lover excitedly, “You are a lawyer. I might draw up a will, or an announcement. Declare that I’ve dedicated suicide and don’t have any involvement with you. I’ll devolve to you all my private and personal property. If you happen to kill me, then, till the top of my life, you may be mine ceaselessly and ever.”

“I’ve thought many occasions of killing you, of getting you all to myself, however…” Ou Tingyun’s tone was so mild: “in the long run, I could not let go of you, I could not let go of you even if you happen to had been so barely injured. So, kill me, it is one of the simplest ways, the surest method, proper, Ze Ze?”

Yi Zhize’s chest rose and fell, and he breathed deeply for some time earlier than gritting his enamel and saying, “Hopeless!”

“Ze Ze,” Ou Tingyun held his wrist, the blade shut at hand, and he held it towards his coronary heart, “I really like you greater than life.”

Yi Zhize threw the scalpel on the ground, “Untie it.”

“What?”

“Unlock the chain,” Yi Zhize stated, “Now, I need to make like to you.”

Ou Tingyun thought he had heard improper.

Yi Zhize kissed him and dug his arms into his pockets.

Taking out the important thing, he unlocked the chain wrapped round his ankle.

The lawyer pressed the physician towards the couch, keen and reckless.

He did not have any expertise, however as a substitute, as if he was intentionally cathartic and vindictive, he bit by means of the nook of the physician’s lip with savage hatred.

The style of blood combined with hormones.

“You are excited, Trainer?” Yi Zhize had solely simply left his lips when he was violently pressed again once more by Ou Tingyun.

Yi Zhize tangled with him for some time and stated in his ear, “You just like the style of blood, do not you?”

Ou Tingyun breathed closely, “Ze Ze, I such as you.”

“Okay,” Yi Zhize took the initiative to unbutton his shirt for him, “let me see how a lot you actually like me.”

———

In the course of the evening, Yi Zhize awakened from his dream.

Ou Tingyun was cuddled as much as him and was sleeping soundly, however when Yi Zhize awakened, he instantly awakened with him, “Ze Ze?”

“What time is it?”

“Simply after one within the morning,” Ou Tingyun stated with concern, “Did you’ve got one other nightmare?”

“Yeah.”

“Do not be afraid, I am right here.” Ou Tingyun took his hand in his and introduced him deeper into his arms, “I am right here.”

“Trainer,” Yi Zhize requested him, “are you able to promise me one thing?”

No extra delays, thought Yi Zhize.

Why?

Understanding that the opposite man was a bottomless lunatic, however nonetheless shedding his thoughts over him?

It may possibly’t go on anymore,

cannot have something extra to do with him,

cannot.

“What’s it?”

“I need a walnut pastry.”

“Okay, I am going to get you some tomorrow.”

“Not tomorrow, now.”

“It is early within the morning, Ze Ze.”

“I dreamt once more… Lijing Street,” Yi Zhize stated, “Trainer, please.”

Ou Tingyun stated softly, “Okay, I am going to go now.”

He turned on the bedside lamp and commenced to dress.

Yi Zhize tugged on the nook of his shirt, “Trainer.”

“Hmm?”

“I need to go too.”

Ou Tingyun rubbed his hair, “Be good, await me at residence, I will be proper again.”

“Trainer, the place I need to eat at is the one on Lijing Street in B Metropolis. It is open 24 hours and you do not know the place it’s.” Yi Zhize stated, “Take me with you, I need to present you the place the place I used to reside. Do you need to find out about me? Trainer, about my previous, my secrets and techniques, every thing about me.”

The underside of Ou Tingyun’s eyes rippled, “Ze Ze, I am pleased.”

“Blissful about what?”

Ou Tingyun kissed him on the brow, “Okay, I promise you.”

He loves me, would not he? Keen to share his previous with me, prepared to point out vulnerability and secrecy to me.

The physician thought, if he would not love me, then he likes me, not less than a bit of.

Nice, he thought, there’s a very long time to come back.

Simply that small trace of affection was sufficient for him.

Sufficient for all his deliveries and bets, sufficient for a lifetime of choice and paranoia.

It was already three within the morning after they reached Lijing Street in B Metropolis by automobile.

Wanting on the acquainted avenue scene, the reminiscences of the nightmares of the previous couldn’t cease repeating themselves in his thoughts.

Yi Zhize compelled himself to endure the extreme bodily headache and the trembling of his physique, feigning his ordinary calmness and composure.

The 2 of them went to the cake store from his reminiscence.

He knew the neighbourhood properly.

From right here, simply 300 metres out was the road’s police station.

If he might maintain again a bit of longer, so long as he might discover an applicable time, he might be capable to fully sever contact with him.

Yi Zhize’s insides all of the sudden started to tear aside, the empty ache echoing the trembling of the nerves in his cranium.

Ou Tingyun, who had been holding his hand, let go of it now, took the walnut pastry from the store assistant and handed it to Yi Zhize, smiling, “Ze Ze, you needed it, I am going to give it to you.”

“Sorry,” Yi Zhize stated, “I do not need it anymore.”

He lifted the paper bag and smashed it laborious into Ou Tingyun’s face.

In a flash, he pulled open the glass door and ran exterior with nice strides.

Nearly there.

Lower than 300 metres away.

Yi Zhize’s temper started to leap.

Lower than 300 metres away.

It began to rain in some unspecified time in the future, drizzling, wetting his hair.

It ran down his eyelashes, like tears.

Nearly there

100 metres to go,

virtually there.

“Ze Ze!!!”

Yi Zhize heard somebody calling out to him.

There was the fierce sound of brakes in his ears and the pungent scent of tyres on the asphalt between his nostrils.

Ooh, it damage.

There was the scent of blood.

Yi Zhize frowned, he did not prefer it.

He had all the time disliked the scent.

Falling to the bottom, the icy rain spilled on his face, mixing with the recent liquid.

What a disgrace, it was so shut.

However, what about after working away from him?

The place would he go, what would he do?

No concept.

Simply…

Yi Zhize thought,

so be it,

it is all proper.

If that is the top of my life,

every thing looks like a fated cycle.

Let the wet evening cleanse me of my sins,

and lay my previous and my future to relaxation.

Like this,

it was good.