“Come on.” She runs her eyes up and down me. “Let’s at the very least get you modified. That may begin that can assist you really feel just a little bit higher…”

I doubt it; any motion makes me wish to throw up once more, however I’ve misplaced the power to battle along with her. I take the garments shegives me and costume whereas making an attempt to maintain my head regular. Fortunately, I handle to reach a manner that I solely throw up yet another time earlier than we have now to go.

The drive to the physician’s workplace is a painful one. The motion of the automobile isn’t enjoyable, jolting my abdomen in all places. I actually hope regardless of the helliswrong with me, I can get some meds or one thing for it to make this go away.

Though I’m fairly positive I might have been higher off simply being left at house to take care of this by myself. I already miss the iciness of the lavatory flooring.

Mother kinds an appointment as I take my seat within the ready room hell. It appears to be perpetually we’re in there, with folks coming and going, till lastly, it’s my flip, and I’m referred to as in.

The physician listens rigorously as I clarify my signs, then proceeds to run some exams on me: blood strain, a urine check, an ECG—the works. All of it appears just a little pointless to me once I clearly simply have a virus or a bug of some variety.

However no matter.

Finally, I can see the physician’s expression flip right into a frown, which, I’ve to confess, does make my coronary heart race quite a bit quicker. I wasn’t planning on getting any precise dangerous information right here. My anxiousness runs amok whereas I mentally attempt to put together myself for the worst.

Not that I’ve any thought what the worst could be.

“Miss Anderson, I believe I do know what’s been inflicting your illness.”

“You do?”

I tuck my arms in my sleeves and fold my arms protectively round myself. Oh God, I’m not going to have the ability to defend myself from something although, am I? No matter this man says may throw my life off kilter fully. Every part that I’ve been going by means of would possibly find yourself not that means a factor…

“From all of your check outcomes right here…” I squeeze my eyes closed. “You’re pregnant.”

Pregnant?

What the hell?

What the hell am I going to do now?

Chapter 22—Alex

I don’t know the way for much longer I can hold doing this.

It seems like I’m reaching the top of my Goddamn tether.

“Alex, what’s going on with you?” Benjamin moans as he joins me within the dressing room after follow. “You werenotyourself on the market. You haven’t been enjoying nicely for ages; what the hell is going on? Is it due to what occurred the opposite evening?”

I shake my head with irritation. “I already instructed you it has nothing to do with the drama at Vipers. Jax was drunk and we finally received him out of there. No harm carried out.”

Effectively, there wassomedamage. That safety guard might be nonetheless bruised, and the images within the paper actually weren’t nice. I used to be the one one put within the highlight once more, with all types of hypothesis, which I didn’t like.

However largely, no harm was carried out.

“I do know that sucked for you, Alex, however on the identical time, we’ve all received to maneuver ahead as a workforce. We’ve received to discover a solution to carry on going, okay? Or we’re going to carry on dropping and screwing up.”

This isnota dialog that I wish to be having.

I don’t like being referred to as out, however Benji is correct. I’m actually not the workforce participant I’m purported to be.

“Don’t fear. It isn’t like several of us blame you…” I look as much as give him a realizing look. Iknoweveryone blames me, and why wouldn’t they? Benjamin averts his gaze. “Look, Alex, we’re allon your aspect, and all of us wish to do no matter you could get you again on observe. With out you being on observe, we’re all messy, you understand? We’re in all places.”

See? That’s the strain I can’t deal with. Figuring out that everybody is counting on me makes my head spin. I can’t deal with it. I often love that strain. I like being the star participant and having the workforce depend on me, however whereas I’m sinking like this, it’s an excessive amount of.

My head falls into my arms.

Reality be instructed, there’s actually just one factor that might clear my thoughts and make me really feel higher. I have to see one individual to do away with this fog in my mind, however she’s made it very clear that she wants a break from all of this. She’s gone again house, she’s carried out with New York Metropolis, and who is aware of when she’s coming again once more.

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