I’m positive everybody thinks I’m a idiot to nonetheless be this heartbroken when Deacon’s made it clear he’s getting on along with his life. And I’m not doing myself any good stalking his Instagram, seeing he’s on the market with different girls—dwelling his life whereas I sit right here day after day not figuring out what to do subsequent.

The one factor I do know is that I’ve to go on, and I’ve to discover a solution to make a brand new life with out him. I have to take care of myself and the child I’m carrying. Hell, I would like to pull myself to the physician’s workplace for a check-up, however I haven’t managed to do this but.

The very first thing I do within the morning is examine Deacon’s Instagram. I shouldn’t—all it does is dig the ache in deeper.

What the hell?

Each picture he’s taken up to now month is gone.

The final picture he has nonetheless up is the one he posted for our engagement. He’s smiling on the digicam. I’m smiling at him like he hung the moon. He did. He nonetheless does.

What does this imply?

It’d be far too simple to learn one thing into this. Possibly Garrett, Victor, and Mallory informed him it made the corporate look dangerous—I don’t know. He absolutely hasn’t had a change of coronary heart.

I’m unsure I’d know what to do if he did.

Even when we’re by no means collectively, I nonetheless need some solutions.

Why did he depart?

Why did he make issues worse day-after-day posting these photographs?

How might he spend time with Adeline after she disrespected me?

Occupied with this entire factor sends me spiralling once more. It’s the hell I’ve lived on this previous month, unable to maneuver ahead.

I do know I’ve to finally, however till then I’m going to second guess the whole lot in my life.

By early afternoon, the fixed buzzing in my head has turn into insufferable, and I surrender making an attempt to learn and head out to the seaside.

Sitting on the sand with the ocean breeze flowing doesn’t utterly clear my thoughts, nevertheless it provides me a break from the heavy stuff.

I attract a deep breath of sea air and cross my fingers with a fast prayer that it’ll assist me sleep higher tonight.

I’m positive it gained’t, however I can have hope.

“Penny on your ideas.”

I’m listening to issues. I have to be.

Deacon’s again at work. He’s undoubtedly not right here with me on this seaside.

I believed he beloved me, nevertheless it’s clear it was all just a few sport to him.

“Pipsqueak.”

One thing brushes my hand, and I look all the way down to discover a man’s fingers lingering on my pores and skin.

No.

I swing my gaze up.

His eyes search mine, and he frowns.

“What are you doing right here?” I croak.

“I’ve tousled so dangerous. I like you, Pippa. I owe you such a giant apology.”

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